once you have loved someone this much you doubt it could ever fade despite how much you'd like it too
grr why must i drink so much? next time i drink somebody hit me hard (i daresay there's a few people here who would enjoy that immensely). worried about david, i was hard last night, nastiest mother fucker i've been in a long time actually. channelled my need for destruction upon one of the fuck buddies...got him fighting his ex and in the process of becoming current boyfriend, who foolishly came in to attack me...was met with an unpleasant suprise. oh how i do love these little games of "who's the biggest bitch"...i always win. now the fuck buddy is trying to have a deep and meaningful with me as if i'm likely to responde...i kindly told him i don't care.
anyways, fuck buddy number two (that is the straight boy) is gonna come on sunday...and i think that in that i'll finish my "phase" of fucking every living thing....much to my great sadness, and perhaps give sexual suppression a bit more of a go....it might even compliment my various other forms of self-torture.
now lets go and try to sober up!