New girl

DefyingGravity's picture

Hey. New girl here. I've just recently kind of started coming out. To some friends, a couple siblings, my mom. My dad'd probably shoot me if he knew. I'm a mormon, if that gives you anything. Or me anything. Or whatever. Anyway, so i've got this friend, she's like 38, and she's like a mom to me. I dated her son, and then we both kind of realized that there wasn't anything there. And now i have a massive crush on her daughter. I've liked girls for a long time, i know that. I used to think i liked guys, i'd get that feeling with them and such, but in the past few years... not so much. At all. Kissing a guy just seems weird to me. Anyway. Back to my friend. She takes care of me, and she's the one who told me to research some stuff, so maybe i could find some support. Which landed me here.
Right now i'm just kind of being, whatever comes out of my fingers comes out and such. I've always been a word nerd. Loved em since i was a little girl. Anyway. I'm really worried right now, cause my friend's daughter, the one i like, has something going on with her and we don't know what it is. She woke up with a really bad headache the other day and then part of her left side of her face, tongue, arm went numb, so they spent 2 hours in the doctor's office trying to figure it out. It could be a number of things, but the three main ones were migranes, a brain tumor, or a miniature stroke caused by a heart condition. We don't know. I haven't seen her in days and i just want to see her and be with her and hold her hand and bring her water and cool her head and make sure she's gonna be ok.
Wow that wasn't rambling. hmm.

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jeff's picture

Hmm...

Welcome to Oasis...

So, is this girl gay?

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"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

WantsOut's picture

Ooh, Mormon is not the right

Ooh, Mormon is not the right religion for a gay kid... Might I suggest Presbyterianism?

*Blatant attempt to convert*

Kidding, love.

Good luck with everything.

ShowMeLove's picture

Welcome to Oasis

Welcome to Oasis DefyingGravity!

That's awesome that you have someone there supporting you, even if it isn't a family member. Your lucky to have someone to listen and help you especially as your coming to terms with your sexuality.

And rambling is awesome, ramble away. Same goes for ranting and that :)

Go hence, to have more talk of these sad things. Some shall be pardoned, some punished. Never was a story of more regret than this of Juliet and her fair Juliet.

Merric's picture

Welcome

Mormon... that's hard. I'm Catholic, also hard.
Word nerds are great. Feel free to spit out whatever comes to mind.

DefyingGravity's picture

thanks for the welcome

thank you all for the warm welcome. i think i'm gay, but i'm not sure. i just know that there are a few girls that i have felt so much for, and the only time i have kissed a girl, it was the most beautiful thing i ever felt, and it felt a million times more wonderful than any guy i've ever kissed.

"Don't you believe, girl, that you changed the world, at least you changed the world for me" -Finger Eleven

DefyingGravity's picture

or did you mean the other

or did you mean the other girl i'm rambling on and on about with the head problem?
cause if so, she's not.

"Don't you believe, girl, that you changed the world, at least you changed the world for me" -Finger Eleven

jeff's picture

yeah...

I don't call people "this girl" when I reply to them. :-)

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"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

DefyingGravity's picture

haha

sorry, my bad, haha =0)

"Don't you believe, girl, that you changed the world, at least you changed the world for me" -Finger Eleven

Siovampire's picture

Hey, welcome! =^.^= Just

Hey, welcome! =^.^= Just wanted to let you know that you definatly picked the right place for support! It's really nice here and yea, we loooove rambling. I really hope that things are ok with your friend. That's hard. But things will always be better when the sun comes up!

Welcome again, and if you ever need to talk, just send me a message :)

ferrets's picture

nice dog.........

in you icon, is it yours, ?
ferrets!!!!!
withflame throwers!!!!
yes im always like this!!!!!

hugs from ferrets!!!!!

ShowMeLove's picture

I second what ferrets

I second what ferrets said.....Nice dog! Then again I'm a sucker for animals :P

Go hence, to have more talk of these sad things. Some shall be pardoned, some punished. Never was a story of more regret than this of Juliet and her fair Juliet.

DefyingGravity's picture

Yes, my icon is my puppy,

Yes, my icon is my puppy, Calleigh. We're hoping we can keep her. She's from one of our other dogs, Delaney's, first and last batch. Litter? Batch? Huh. Sounds like cookies. Now i'm hungry... cookie dough ice cream? YES!!
Back to reality. Hugs back, Ferrets. And thanks. I need hugs sometimes. Much appreciated. =0)

"Don't you believe, girl, that you changed the world, at least you changed the world for me" -Finger Eleven