So here I am. Friday night and home alone because I have standards.
My friend, Amy, who I have drifted away from over the past few months invited me to a party tonight. I said no.
She just drinks to get confidence. I'm so over alcohol right now. I don't need it to feel good about myself. I'm not going to be her fucking back up friend.
I have tried calling her before and try talking to her but she always says she'll call back and never does. I've stopped calling and now out of nowhere she calls me. Idk what to do. I feel like shit because I've been wanting to talk to her for forever and then when she tries talking to me I don't want to talk to her.
And when I do talk to her for the short amount of time in between classes its really awkard. Like not good.
Well I just needed to kinda vent that soo....
In other news its stormy outside. I like it cuz its kinda how i feel right now.