sex, stuff and rock n' roll...and a threesome?

bulldyke's picture

i obsess over music. not like, obsess over it, but...for weeks or months at a time, i'll only listen to one artist or genre. melissa was last summer, then the indigo girls...sometimes it's beethoven, gregorian chant, or p!nk. right now, it's breaking benjamin. GOD i love them.

and i need sex. like...wow. badly. and my trusty little hand just isn't enough. i need to make someone ELSE come....me is not enough (yes, i'm such a freakin cliche of a top, it's not even funny). i don't really want/need a relationship...just a woman, preferable at least semi-attractive, who's willing to let me fuck her brains out. crude, but enjoyable.

i waded through mud today. and grazed horses.

OH!!! and i'm going to my first show next week! well, it's not MINE, but i'm gonna be an assistant groom! i'm so freakin excited!!! maybe i'll meet some hot little thing who's up for a quick role in the hay...lolz (pun very much intended).

and over spring break (first week in april), S is doing a week long horse camp for all the little kiddies, and she's gonna hire me as an unmounted instructor. wee!!! $10 an hour, bitches!! (adam, you're a bad influence). and next summer, if nothing else pans out, i'm sure S'll hire me.

i got my first letter back from CDF. "because of the uncertain budget for the department..." blah blah blah, they're only hiring 240 applicants, and i didn't make the cut. lol it's no biggie, really.

the station is one that i only applied to in case nothing else worked. i didn't really want to work there...it's too much of the Valley...i want mountains or ocean!

i'm so freaking out about camping! i keep thinking of things that i need to pack...gah! and i'm uber tired, and i need to sleep, cause i'm getting up in six hours!!!

thank god for Monster...taurine is MY GOD (and caffine is my bitch...gah!). lol

and just cause it's late at night...what are your thoughts on threesomes? i think they're hot to watch/read about (better to read than watch, cause there's no hardcore lesbian porn out there...just the crap made by guys), and i'd be totally into trying one.

i also want a dildo. all the times i think about sex, it involves me with a cock...is that odd? lol i just think it's hotter that way. nothing against oral/digital...that's good too.

i just...i'd prefer to save that kind of intimate contact for a lover.

i need more money...i want to buy more erotica. lol i'm so pathetic, i know.

but Em thinks my crush is straight, and she's probably right. i might still try...i dunno.

crap, i really need to go to sleep! ha...yeah, like that's gonna happen. sigh...

well, i'll talk to y'all when i get back...pray i don't drown! lol

BD

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jeff's picture

Uhh...

I have a hard time believing there's no hardcore lesbian porn made by lesbians out there. Just that you don't know about it and it's possibly harder to find.

Yup, as I suspected, goodvibes.com has you covered. Here's the description for their Lesbian DVDs: "For folks who prefer their porn with actual lesbians, dykes, queers, and genderqueers getting it on in a hot variety of features that range from Artcore to Hardcore, these sexy films focus on lesbian love and lust in all its many forms."

They're like 4 blocks from my apartment, heh.

As for threesomes, it depends how the situation goes. I've seen three people hook up at a bar and all go home together, which is good, since it's equal footing (unless it was a package deal). But once you get into joining a couple, or being in a couple and bringing in a third, then it's an interesting dynamic to balance to make sure everyone's OK with it, no one's feeling neglected or, if you're in the couple inviting the third party in, that you're not giving the guest more pleasure or getting off with her more than you seem to with your girlfriend. So, even with an all girl three-way, there are a lot of balls you have to keep in the air. :-)

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bulldyke's picture

yes, but is it free? that's

yes, but is it free? that's the kicker right now...i have no money, and i'm under 18 (with no way of getting fake ID), so unless it's free, online, it doesn't help me. but thanks! :D i'll definitely check them out! lol

Bulldyke
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