i need some...help/advice/suggestions. obviously it's about Ohad. I feel really strange, maybe it's in my head. i dunno where to place it though, i just know something feels wrong, very wrong even.
More details needed.
"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis
on the whole...we get along great. we've been on three dates...all of which ended up in sex though one was more...playing. he calls me everyday and usually sends texts. that's the good points.
the bad points....
we've not had very meaningful conversations...to be honest, but that could be attributed to the fact that all the time we've spent together has been stolen from our individual schedules. we don't match as far as looks go...he's far better looking. he doesn't like the way i dress. then the big one is...today we had arranged for a date and i came in the right time to the right place, he didn't show. for the course of a half an hour i texted once and called three times. no answer at all. so i went home very disappointed. then an hour later he rings and apologises, he had fallen asleep (it's no suprise he's tiered, he works like a madman)....and wanted to see me before he starts work. i agreed with him though i still felt it was wrong what he did. when he came over i told him that i like him very much but it was uncool what he did....he apologised profusely, but i dunno. he stayed for an hour before having to leave for work, just enough time for us to have sex, for him to get an orgasm, i didn't. that was...not exactly cool either. other than that....i dunno what to say or what to think, he's lovely and i'm clearly crazy about him but i can't handle getting hurt again, whatever i know everyone says that all the time, and i know i'll survive even if it dont' work out...it's just...a shame.
if it counts for anything, i think you look amazing. do what your heart tells you. "go now, if you want it, an otherworld awaits you.Don't you, give up on it, you bite the hand that feeds you."
Go into the sand, and the dust, and the sky
Go now, there's no better plan, than to do or to die
Free me, pray to the fayth in the face of the light
Feed me, fill me with sin, and get ready to fight
1. Shut up. You're gorgeous.
2. You're...going...too...fucking...fast!!! Slowwwwww it down. Don't be in such a rush to either pick out a flatware pattern with him or declare defeat. The only hope of sustaining a successful relationship is to put in the necessary TIME to build a strong foundation. They don't spring up overnight like mushrooms and dandelions.
3. If you expressed your annoyance, and he apologized profusely...forget it and move on. If it becomes a trend, then worry about it.
4. You're a wanker.
- Pat Nelson Childs
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