Help?

Bi the Book's picture

Lately I have been really emotional. Yesterday night I just broke out crying and I don't even know why. Whenever I hear a sad song on the radio, I get really sad. I don't know if it has to do with the stress and being overwhelmed with coming out to some people, and yet still in the closet to most. Also, I know I shouldn't, but I care what people think of me. I already know 2 of my friends think it's awkward that I'm bisexual. I try to make people like me, and I know it's a bad habit. Anybody know what could be going on? I hate crying, but for some reason, I can't help it. Urg!

bulldyke's picture

hormones suck. might it be

hormones suck. might it be pms? or is it going on too long for that?

i'd go with stress. coming out is SO hard, especially when you're not accepted wiht love and hugs.

of course you care what people think of you....that's perfectly normal. everyone does, and anyone who tells you that they DON'T care is lying at some level.

you might also be slightly depressed, which again, is pretty much normal for teens, and especially for gay teens without much support (of even those of us with tons of it). if it keeps getting worse, or just stays bad, you might concider finding a therepist.

if you do decide to do that, we can give you all sorts of advice for how to go about doing it. :)

*hug* hang in there, okay? it DOES get better. and sometimes....crying isn't a bad thing.

PM me if you ever want to talk. :)

Bulldyke
"I'm kissing you through the bars of this rhyme/When Julie, I'd do the stars with you anytime/Ah, Juliet" ~Indigo Girls, Romeo and Juliet

Bi the Book's picture

I have had some thoughts

I have had some thoughts that i might be depressed, but just slightly. I have support, but my parents don't know yet. They wouldn't throw me out of the house or anything, but i just don't feel i am close enough to them to tell them that. people tell me all the time i shouldn't care what people think of me, but i still do. I hope your right about it getting better. i could use the *hugs* lol :/
It hurts when you have someone in your heart but you can't have them in your arms.

the mouse that roared's picture

That was me all last

That was me all last semester--I was just crying all the time for a whole bunch of different random reasons, but the reasons didn't seem to match the intensity of emotion. It's rough. Sometimes you just need to get rid of all your crap. Sometimes life is just really hard. But there are always people who love you and care about you--I know that Oasis has helped me through hard times before, as has my therapist.

Best of luck coming out! It does get better!

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. --Anais Nin

Bi the Book's picture

I hope your right about it

I hope your right about it getting better. I'm holding on as tight as I can.
It hurts when you have someone in your heart but you can't have them in your arms.

queercatholic's picture

I know what you mean...

Coming out to people that I really respect is SUCH an emotional thing for me to do (both if they accept homosexuality and if they don't...) Just hang in there, sweetiepie. I know exactly how you are feeling, remember that we are ALL here for one another. Keep venting, keep coming out (if you feel that it's right) and keep just being you. Remember: YOU ARE WONDERFUL!

Bi the Book's picture

Thanks a bunch. I kinda

Thanks a bunch. I kinda figured everyone on here has gone through that so that's why I posted it here instead of keeping it inside. being me is seeming to get harder and harder as time goes on. I hope your right about it getting better.
It hurts when you have someone in your heart but you can't have them in your arms.