Just because

Disney's picture

So I once again return to vent my fury and confusion, or something like it, haha.

I'm in uni and having a ball for the most part, except for the past month I've been sick and on meds and ick I'm back to coughing... and I have a midterm this week. And I may have screwed up coffee with a boy. And I kind of want to just hook up with a random man in the village since I haven't had sex in months and almost want the unlikely potential for a relationship from that.

I really, really want my coffee with the boy to have worked out, and I'd put more but for some reason I'm being paranoid and thinking he might read this or something... but basically it went well enough, I'm impatient though and would've loved more affirmation from his end on it going well, oooor I don't want to wait a few days to hear from him again, which is normative enough and what I know to expect, and if I called/messaged it might seem a bit much, ahhh.

Which is why I practically want to just kiss a random, decent-looking, similarly-aged man while partially drunk (or totally, hmm) so we can skip over the initial relationship messiness and admit to being attracted and fill in more details as we go along. Except I've been there and done that a few times and ahhh, hasn't worked, probably because the boys I see that I'd like even in drunk danceville don't seem to feel the same way, or are TAKEN (more often than not) or really just want to have sex.

Aww.

I'm loving Flo Rida's new stuff, go bringing back old hits+adding rap+a nice girl's voice for a hit single. I smell many more formulaic hits to come, woo.

Back to sickness, I feel tired but have verrrry little time for this midterm I haven't reviewed for, damn. In other news, I know my life is better than others around me since two friends have major boy problems, including a) abuse and b) him sleeping with 5 other girls in the course of 2 weeks. Yay my life. Sort of.

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jeff's picture

Hmm...

I've never converted a trick into a relationship. Of course, I've never tried. There are people who hook up initially because there is a mutual attraction and it does blossom into the proverbial "more," but more often than not, it's more like, "Well, he'd be fun tonight..."

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"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

patnelsonchilds's picture

I just gave someone my

I just gave someone my "Three types of boy sex" lecture, today. I suppose it would be a good thing to share it with everyone, but I have a monster headache at the moment, so I'll put a reminder in Outlook to do it when it goes away. It may be true for girls as well, but I'm not a girl, so I wouldn't know, would I? One of the "lesbian aunts" of Oasis can comment on it and let the rest of us know.

In the meantime, I have one short reminder: CONDOMS!!!

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