Zephyr's picture

I've been talking to my best friend a lot about my gf lately. And I don't know. I'm really confused. I think I should leave her. I love her, but she and I aren't really good for each other as I'm starting to realize more and more. I encourage her to do things like her homework, but she doesn't do the same for me. She is just kind of there. And I love being with her when it is just her and I and we can be all cute and sweet. But idk, it still bothers me that she cheated. I don't trust her like I did before. And it totally changed our relationship.

I don't want to think about her.

I don't even feel bad that when I was at the hardware store with my family the other day I saw this really hot girl working there. I like girls that are androgynous, and I haven't gone out with one. My gf and I are switch off on who is more girly and it's kind of.. eh, not working for me. I like dressing up, but I sometimes feel like I have to put too much effort into it. Like maintain it. And that just isn't something I'm into. I like being around my best friend because then I can look scuzzy, or I don't have to wear make-up (not even that I wear a lot), but it's nice. I know it would be a lot easier to just date my best friend. But that totally isn't an option. She's like my sister. And totally straight.


bulldyke's picture

hmm. cheating can definitly

hmm. cheating can definitly break up a relationship.

it sounds like you're right. she's not good for you. and i can definitly believe that you still love her, but are you still IN love with her?

to see a world in a grain of sand
and a heaven in a wild flower
hold infinity in the palm of your hand
and eternity in an hour

~William Blake