It's worse today.
I think i've lost Ohad, he wrote on his facebook status "but why now?? i had a feeling"..which means....i guess that he no longer has that feeling, that something has happened...that i missed something. i can't text or call him, i deleted him for that specific reason...so i emailed him...asking him what's going on. why should it end? what's the purpose in it, what creation can come out of this destruction? who is it exactly that's playing with me in such a cruel way? is it God? if so it's time he gave me a break. I can't do this anymore...I love Ohad, I Love Him, and it gives what? it just breaks my heart again, all over again