IM MOVING!!!! YAY!!!! My family is FINALLY coming back!! They've ordered their tickets to Thailand on the 29th of July where they'll spend a week (just for a holiday...it's our family's favourite holiday destination) and bring me up from Israel too if they can before coming to Israel and settling in the centre. I'm a bit reluctant to meet them in Thailand...I think our reunion is going to be a very hard one and it'll take time before we're on the same page again...soooooooooooooo much has happened to me, to them....we've all changed so much and have had all these experiences separately from one another...them together..me alone. So, i guess maybe I'm thinking it's best if I meet them on home turf here in Israel where if it doesn'twork out with them i can always go away to my grands/aunts/uncle/friends. When they come here they plan to live in either Ra'anana which is like Israel's cleanest nicest city and it's like only ten minutes from Tel Aviv where i go to uni..or Kfar Saba which will have to be the second nicest city...which is about fifteen minutes from Tel Aviv but also has it's own, very very good, much cheaper art school than the one i'm going to now, which could be really nice too..plus there's a big gay community there and lots of nightlife unlike here...so i could work more easily and just generally things will be more flexible...more free...
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I LOOK FOWARD TO HAVING MY OWN ROOM!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! MY OWN BED!!!!! MY OWN WARDROBE!!!!!! MY OWN SHEETS!!!!! MY OWN SPACE!!! A CD PLAYER!!!!
OMG! it'll be wonderful, and privacy....a place to call my own! and i can hang MY paintings on the wall and put whatever i want wherever i want....that would be amazing.
My mother has stopped giving me money coz i told her what i do with it...that kinda bites....but i have stopped the alcohol and weed which was the expensive part...the sex doesn't cost a thing except when i have to travel which i rarely do coz i'm lazy and there's no shortage of gorgeous men right here.....natanya may be a shithole city but it's packed full of homos, most of which are closeted...most of which have religious parents, most of which are creeps...the homos in ra'anana and kfar saba are a lot more liberated...not to mention the tel aviv gay which might be a little too liberated.
I really want a dog again too...you have no idea how much you miss certain things until they're gone...and in my case...until you see the possibility of having them again. I want a little dog this time...billie was a huge dog....and i can't have a dog that reminds me of her, so i was thinking something small and lazy that doesn't need much maintenance...again coz i'm lazy...i just want like a little walking cuddling machine...that just disappears when i've not the energy for it...be really strange living all the family together...been years since it was everybody...that's a thoguht that's a fine mixture of happiness with serious concern.
anyway that's it for me for now....i know my posts have been rediculously long but once i get all this shit off my chest i'll shorten them.