so i didn't get this morning to tell you what happened to me last night with the boys. in the end, i saw them both. Aviv i saw because i enjoy him, his body, his kissing and his company, he's a good friend/fuck buddy, but i will not see him again while Ohad is in the picture (btw to pronounce that name is like: O-HUD, but most people are lazy and say: O-ad). It turned out really strange actually, Aviv (Aviv is the straight boy, i know this is confusing, there a lot of boys, don't confuse Aviv with the ukranian (itai) or Amit...who im removing from the equation) had to leave early because he had an emergency with some of his soldiers (he's an officer), just after he left, i'm all readying for bed and i get a text from Ohad saying he wants to see me, this is at like 2 30 am. Aviv and I had only managed two orgasms last night but they were both incredible btw. Anyways, I had to rush like a crazy person and tidy up the room, air out the smell of sex, change clothes and decided to make things a little nice, just for him, so i lit a candle, got some drinks on the shelf next to my bed and got some strawberries out with brown sugar. he had bought food before he came, he had just gotten off work, he worked from 11am till 3am the poor bastard, he works in an events place so he works long strange hours. anyway he came over with his food and i gave him one of my famous hugs (hehe) and he said...get this...that when i hug him like that it makes him want to cry. isnt that the most corny but sweettttt thing you've ever heard!! anyway we go in and he eats his dinner, chat, listen to music, i introduced him to sarah blasko, and australian singer/songwriter who's absolutely amazing, i highly reccomend. anyway, we ate some strawberries and talked some more, doing naughty things to eachother all the while though we were fully dressed. anyway after that we made out, heheh, he said i tasted like the strawberries and sugar...i wish i could say the same but in fact he tasted like the chillie he just ate. no comlaint...his kiss was made literally HOT hehehe. anyway, he was beat, as you can imagine, from work. so i took his clothes off and mine and massaged him for a while, he almost fell asleep, one part of him, however, was very much awake...so i pleasured him while he relaxed...though i didn't let him cum...wasn't the point, just wanted to make him feel good. anyways after that we hugged and both fell asleep, and thus i broke into new territory, i actually SLEPT with somebody, not had sex with him...which i'm quite proud of myself for. when it as time for him to go, before my grandparents wake up, we woke up and got dressed again while hugging and kissing. it's really cold outside my tiny little room and i turned the heater on....so out little hugs and kisses were almost as much to keep warm as they were for anything else. it was time to go and i wanted to show him i didn't want him to leave, he was sitting on the edge of the bed with his legs (with shoes) on the floor, i was in the centre of the bed yet to put my shoes on...so i wrapped my arms around him and reclined him on my body and hugged him tightly, kissed his forehead, eyes and neck and just held him for a while, lol he repeated what he said about wanting to cry and said i'm makign it very hard for him to crawl out of bed and go home. i took him outside to his car and we kissed and hugged one last time and he left. then this afternoon i sent him a text saying it was great sleeping next to him and he replied by saying it was amazing and that he really loved seeing me when he woke up...aaah aren't we just disgusting????!!!!
HAHAHAHA, fucking romance.
we might spend purim together, i really want to, i haven't celebrated it in 11 years, since i left for australia and last year i had nobody to celebrate it with. for those of you who don't know that's the holiday celebrating the esther scroll, and what the jews do..basically...is dress up, eat, drinking alcohol and eating cookies is encouraged...and no i'm not kidding. so i wonder what i'll dress up as? i was thinking Salvador Dali actually, or else i could go in drag, anyway, would be nice, go to a party with him, be together, i hope we make it till the holiday...and if we do then he's birthday is soon after, and if anyone on this planet makes birthdays special for someone, tis me! but again i don't know if we'll be together that long...not for any special reason other than...well...i don't want to build my hopes up, in case i fall in love and get hurt (which i'm close to right now, falling in love that is), or if, even more likely...i'll sabotage myself...something i do without even knowing or having the power to stop it. Still a boy can hope can't he? what the fuck did i do to deserve a boy like Ohad...he's incredible.