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centerfielder08's picture

I wanted to jump in front of the cars the other day.
I stopped because I didn't think people would come and get me from the street, mainly my teacher, becasue i was on a fielddtrip.
maybe I should start saying goodbyes soon? i dont know how this works....

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ferrets's picture

this.........

is just a stage, im sure, you just have to stick it out. oh wheres jeff when you need him?
you take care of your self.
ferrets

Riku's picture

Keep it together.

You can get through this. There's more to life than this. I promise.

Zephyr's picture

**HUGS**

Please talk to someone, preferably a trusted adult. Life gets better after a certain point. I thought about killing myself every day when I was in middle school. And I didn't. I'm seventeen and I couldn't be happier. I've been in therapy for three years and it's the best thing that i could have done. Your life is worth living. You are loved. People will miss you if you die.
Don't do it.

Did you meet your fortune teller?
...
Do it up, it's always stellar
---RHCP

Bi the Book's picture

It's not worth it

I know life's hard but think of all the things you'd be leaving behind. Friends, family, life itself. All of it is worth living for. I'm here if you need to talk. Jeff might have some words of advice too.

centerfielder08's picture

Help me stop!

Help me stop!

ferrets's picture

you.............

mean the wanting to kill yourself? we cant stop that, only you and time can, but we can try to help in our own way, if that be making you laugh, or trying to convince you otherwise, or comforeting you.

ferrets

centerfielder08's picture

I really need help. I don't

I really need help.
I don't want to do anything stupid.
Shit. Maybe I already have.

ferrets's picture

well.........

youve already gone to th E.R. so why are you having these thoughts/actions?

ferrets

centerfielder08's picture

I stayed in the ER for 3.5

I stayed in the ER for 3.5 hours.
All they did was check height, weight, blood pressure and ask me questions.
Shit shit shit.

ferrets's picture

but.................

what is the reason that YOU are acting this way. what is you pupose for these acts.

ferrets

centerfielder08's picture

The cause? I truly don't

The cause? I truly don't know.
But it hurts.

ferrets's picture

just............

life in generall?

centerfielder08's picture

Huh? I don't know. It hurts

Huh?
I don't know. It hurts too much.

centerfielder08's picture

I'm sorry for screwing with

I'm sorry for screwing with everyone's lives like this.
I'll stop soon. Don't worry.

ferrets's picture

its............

fine, plus you better mean youll stop just cause yyour coming out of this stage.

ferrets

centerfielder08's picture

I don't know about that. I'm

I don't know about that.
I'm sorry.

ferrets's picture

sigh

read the title.

AoiYumi's picture

If you need help, I'm here

If you need help, I'm here to listen. I understand the spontanaity of suicide. But you don't have to talk to me. You could talk to someone else. Whatever makes you more comfortable. Just think about it.

DefyingGravity's picture

HEY

I'm not leaving you, you are most definitely NOT leaving me. I care too much about you. Please. You have a family here who loves you and needs you to be with them. us. we need you. We love you.
Softball.
Waterslides.
Your teacher.
Hold on, precious.
You're worth it all.

"Don't you believe, girl, that you changed the world, at least you changed the world for me" -Finger Eleven

centerfielder08's picture

I'm starting to plan.

I'm starting to plan.

hellonwheels's picture

dont do it dude!

just go do somethign to get ur mind off of it! borrow that friends bike and learn to ride! go for a walk! lsiten to music! jsut do something that will make you feel better and get your mind off of it! jsut remember, no matter how bad it is, it can only get better, right? we ARE here for you, and if you need to chat, aks for AIM and or PM's and we WILL answer. hope this comment finds you well Eli!

-hell

wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

centerfielder08's picture

But this

But this hurts.
...Hellonwheels....I need you're advice. Youre pm's help. please..