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Riku's picture

I don't even know how to ask this. I'm really bad with words sometimes.

I've been talking to Eli (centerfielder08) a lot recently, And he's been scaring me. If you've been reading his journals you'd know. He's been talking about suicide. It scares me so much.

So if you guys could please help out and support him that'd be great. Because he needs it right now.

Please everyone. I don't know if my help is enough.

I'm so terrified that he'll do something that he can't reverse.

So if we could all show some support, I really think that would help. So many of you here give much better advice than me, because you really know what you're talking about. I really want to help him through this.

Thanks everyone.

Hakase's picture

Read this.

http://survive.org.uk/stories3.html
This is pretty much what we're all trying to say.

Icarus's picture

just going to say it once

eli, babe, don't do. whatever it is, it is never that bad. life is too beautiful to cut it short.

so for those of you falling in love
keep it kind, keep it good, keep it right
throw yourself in the midst of danger
and keep one eye open at night.
--"Elephants" Rachel Yamagata

centerfielder08's picture

I love you. Alll of you.

I love you. Alll of you. Just need to say that before it's to late.

patnelsonchilds's picture

Eli, Do what you told me you

Eli,
Do what you told me you were going to do. I just pvt ed you back. Call your friend and do it right now. That's an order.

_________________________________

- Pat Nelson Childs
"bringing strong gay & lesbian characters to Sci-Fi & Fantasy"

centerfielder08's picture

My parents won't let me use

My parents won't let me use the phone. I'm stuck. Forever.

jeff's picture

Hmm...

If you're that strict about obeying their rules, ask them if you can kill yourself.

If they say no, then you can't do that either.

---
"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

underdarkness's picture

Way to contribute and add

Way to contribute and add sound advice. God, you can be such an idiot.

- One Nation, Under Darkness, with liberty and justice for white, heterosexual, rich, Christian men

Splash's picture

hey...

...there's a time and a place to attack Jeff's tactics if you so desire. I don't think this thread is the best for that. Let's focus on supporting Eli first, OK?

~~~ the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses ~ e e cummings ~~~

underdarkness's picture

Yeah,

You're right. This isn't the best place.

However, Jeff totally deserves to be shown that what he is saying is inappropriate.

- One Nation, Under Darkness, with liberty and justice for white, heterosexual, rich, Christian men

jeff's picture

Opinion...

Pointing out the absurdity of someone about to kill themselves in their bedroom not being able to call a suicidal hotline because their parents grounded them from using the phone may not be a message of support, but I think it's relevant to point out.

As I've never been depressed, suicidal, cutter, etc., I tend not to say much in these threads otherwise.

Of course, aside from poetry and entering contests, I think the only other thing I see you do on here is slam me on occasion, so have at it, I guess. Doesn't really affect me, so if it makes you feel better, I guess that's what Oasis is supposed to be here for.

---
"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

underdarkness's picture

...

I wouldn't "slam you" if some of the horrible things you say didn't need to be pointed out.

So stop defending your comments making fun of a suicidal teenager. You know full well that some of the stuff you say isn't exactly well thought out.

Adam A's picture

meow

dude...gotta learn to pick u'r battles better

Icarus's picture

no you're not, you have us,

no you're not, you have us, right here, and we'll be here for as long as needed, okay?

so for those of you falling in love
keep it kind, keep it good, keep it right
throw yourself in the midst of danger
and keep one eye open at night.
--"Elephants" Rachel Yamagata

patnelsonchilds's picture

I have Eli on pvt, guys.

I have Eli on pvt, guys. Just keep lending her support. We're trying to get it all sorted out together.

_________________________________

- Pat Nelson Childs
"bringing strong gay & lesbian characters to Sci-Fi & Fantasy"

Neutrina's picture

*hug* Eli, please, please

*hug*
Eli, please, please don't do anything you can't undo.

"When the people begin to reason, all is lost" - Voltaire

Merric's picture

We need you here, Eli. We're

We need you here, Eli. We're all here for you. Keep on going and it will never be too late.

Adam A's picture

meow

eli you little shit! you wanna give me a fucking heart attack!?! we love you and want you HERE!!!

Bi the Book's picture

wow adam. that must make Eli

wow adam. that must make Eli feel a lot better. lol

Adam A's picture

meow!

i'm jewish, we've been guilt tripping people since before Jesus was born

titov_pionir's picture

Eli, Please stop, then think

Eli,
Please stop, then think about the good things that have happened thus far. When I fell into deep depression, I found this very difficult to do but when I did it, it helped a lot. I had forgot a lot of those things. Blocked them out in order to help me rage. (as bad as that sounds.) But seeing good things that have happened to me, I began gaining hope that I could get all that back and then strived harder to get it.

Happiness is not unreachable. I have found that I have never been as happy as when I fell to my lowest and was then able to pull myself "back up by the bootstraps". You'll really appreciate all the little things that make you happy and will see that its a lot easier than you thought. Just start slow. And don't ever give up.

gaynow's picture

We're all here for you dude.

We're all here for you dude. Don't do anything stupid. Life is beautiful and wonderful and absolutely worth living, even if it doesn't seem that way all the time. Stick around.

1-866-4-U-TREVOR (1-866-488-7386)

hellonwheels's picture

yeah eli/ sofia has been concerning me too...

so if you're reading this, check out the trevor project or the boys and girls town national hotline if you need to chat, or sned me a pm on the site agian dude. i'll listen. how'd riding the bike for the first time go???

-hell

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

fox333's picture

*hug* i hope you feel better

*hug* i hope you feel better soon! and please don't do anything! *hug*

ferrets's picture

i............

have been talking to eli to, eli, please, you know this isnt right for you. and use the phone when your parents arnt there. well maybe not, but i never follow rules very good.

Maux's picture

RULES ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN,

RULES ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN, ESPECIALLY AT A TIME LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!! USE THE PHONE!!!!! sorry, had to do that. (it was better than figuring out where you live, comming there, and screaming it at you while bashing your head against thephone you're forbidden to use, right?) *hugs* we;re here for ya.

"Up your ziggy with a wah-wah brush!"
-All I wanna Do (good movie. see it!)

wild-blue-yonder's picture

Yeah, I'm pretty sure your

Yeah, I'm pretty sure your parents would rather you use the phone than kill yourself. Not that it should be a choice between the two, but I think you get what we mean.

You're going through a lot more than most of the rest of us ever have. When you pull yourself through, you will have found this amazing strength that no one can ever take away. Please just think of that, and how things WILL get better. You can do that for yourself. And we're here to help as much as we can.

centerfielder08's picture

Ow...hurting like hell ,

Ow...hurting like hell , only compared to this, hell is heaven.

Merric's picture

Hang in there, Eli. Don't be

Hang in there, Eli. Don't be afraid to ask for help.

wild-blue-yonder's picture

How are you doing today?

How are you doing today?

Splash's picture

hey all...

Eli's been messaging me on and off for the last couple of days.

Please encourage him to keep posting and messaging — I think he may be afraid of scaring us away.

And Eli, I'll say it again, we love you here. We will not abandon you.

Don't ever give up. The world needs you for something, and you've got to be here to find out what it is.

<3

~~~ the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses ~ e e cummings ~~~

centerfielder08's picture

Fucking shoot me. Anyone

Fucking shoot me.
Anyone have a gun I can borrow?

howie's picture

Proud of you all.

All the prior comments made me feel great. Great that all of you on this site are so caring towards Eli's issues. Eli, you know I'm there for you. I wish I could fix it all for you. I can't. But I can listen and give some guidance. Don't stop PM-ing me. I enjoy talking to you. Look at the outpouring of love just given to you on the prior comments. You are somebody. You will make it through this. Keep PM-ing me! LOVE HOWIE

Bi the Book's picture

Yeah i have been helping Eli

Yeah i have been helping Eli too. Eli, we are all here for you and like I've said before, just talk to someone. That's what therapists are paid to do, talk to you, listen, then give advice. Ok, that's more like a school counselor but you get my point. Don't be afraid to talk to her. xoxo And don't do anything you'll regret later. God put you on this earth for a reason, and even if you're an atheist, you're still on this earth for a reason. Think about that.

Rachel_Girl's picture

Don't hurt yourself, please,

Don't hurt yourself, please, please don't. I know this is hard to think about but even when your being smothered by despair things can get better. Get help. Please, please don't do anything you can't take back. Life may be f-ed up right now but that's not enough reason to take your life out of the equation.

Everybody here cares about you Eli, hold on to that.

Love Happens

Inkblot's picture

Eli...

Hang in there, dude. It will get better.

Do I shock you darling?
-Sally Bowles, Cabaret

centerfielder08's picture

Thank you everyone for your

Thank you everyone for your support.

Right now I'm safe. I'm not an emergency case.

the mouse that roared's picture

I haven't been on the site

I haven't been on the site much recently, and I don't know you well at all, but I wanted to throw in a hug, and some wisdom from the distant tunnels of my own depression/suicidal thoughts. When I thought about killing myself, sometimes I tried to remember that someday, I would laugh again. There would be happiness again, even if fleeting. Maybe I would even laugh once tomorrow. If there was going to be any positivity in the future, would I want to end my life now and miss out? That helped sometimes. I kept on telling myself I would get out, it would get better. And although I had a really terrible time growing up, I have so much more strength and wisdom now because of it.

Finally, know that you are not alone! You are never alone. There are always people out there that care a lot about you. Life is a great gift and opportunity, painful but also with potential for such wonder. PM me if you need to.

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. --Anais Nin

centerfielder08's picture

I think I take that back

I think I take that back (of what I last said.)

kaj's picture

Eli...

I can't say anything that wouldn't be redundant. All I can do is offer you my ear. Know that nobody wants to see you die. Look how many people have sent out their love and support to you. If you won't keep living for yourself, for now keep living for us. Eventually you will find happiness

And I will guarantee that.

BlueChica's picture

Eli, I may not know you, but

Eli, I may not know you, but you shouldn't kill yourself. I know what you are going through. You can pm me whenever if you just need an understanding ear. Don't kill yourself. The world is a better place with you here. Dozens of people are here ato help and support you. Just hang in there. *Hugs*

centerfielder08's picture

I know this is an old forum

I know this is an old forum but I just wanted to say Thanks to everyone.

I'm back now :)