This doesn't make sense

music is life's picture

Do you ever wish that you could go to sleep and wake up and everything would be all better?
Thats how I feel right now. And I don't know what to do. Because I just want it to get better. I'm not capable of fixing this and its fucking with my head. Or maybe I am capable, I don't really know.

You know, I used to think this place was weird. Why would I ever want to write where strangers could see it on the internet? When I first joined here I was one fucked up kid. This place has been one of the best friends I've ever had. And I think thats because it has helped me be my own friend, to love myself for who I am. I'm not necesarly talking about being gay either, but as a human being completely.
Writing on here gets my thoughts out of my head that I can't keep inside anymore, but can't tell people in real life. I've basically been writing to myself. I honestly hope that one day I will look back on all of this and say that this has made me who I am today, and I'm proud of it and I will be able to talk openly about it. That light is soo far away, but thats ok for right now.

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Merric's picture

I've been feeling that way a

I've been feeling that way a lot lately. I hope things do get better, if not overnight.
But as Pat would say, if you can't fix it, don't worry about it, and if you can fix it, just do what you can.