back from the hospital

centerfielder08's picture

I got back from the hospital where i had my evaluation. i will be going to an outpatinet program 3 times a week (~10 hours). I'm not sure how I feel right now.
It bothers me that they dont want me / dont think I need more help. that makes me want to try to kill / hurt myself. anyone have any good ways on doing it with the least amount of pain?

then they can just add me to the #s of fucked up kids. i dont care anymore. i'll die and nobody will notice.

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the ghost's picture

This isn't suicide.com

This isn't suicide.com people are not going to post ways for you to kill yourself on here. Why do you want to go into hospital so badly? Surely it would be better to be focusing on ways feel better so you don't need to be attending the hospital at all as opposed to figuring out how you can kill yourself.

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent-Eleanor Roosevelt

centerfielder08's picture

that's true. i didnt think

that's true. i didnt think people would acctually suggest ways. i just need help and cant call the hotlines. not yet. no.

centerfielder08's picture

they'll hate me for what i

they'll hate me for what i did. and what happened to me. not after last week. not ever.

jeff's picture

Yikes...

Hmm, to be fair, they are probably accepting you for the maximum allowance based on your parent's insurance, not whether you need more time.

If you're going to kill yourself to show them that you're serious about killing yourself, isn't that sort of an indication that you're lacking a serious reason to kill yourself? So, whose point are you really proving here? :-)

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"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

centerfielder08's picture

no. i need the hospital i

no. i need the hospital

i just cant call any hotline. because of what happened. whats been happening . because of my stupidity.

ow.shit. .stop that . help me. help me get away from this. now. helpp.

Peregrine's picture

ELI IF YOU DON'T CUT THE

ELI IF YOU DON'T CUT THE SHIT I WILL MAKE IT A HOMOCIDE INSTEAD OF A SUICIDE!!!!!!! DONT MAKE ME COME UP THERE, CUZ NOW I AM WEARING THIN WITH HOW MUCH I CAN LET YOU SAY.

if you will tell me wat you did/ is going on i might be able to help a little.

"but outside the door to my German class, leaning against the wall--looking more like a Roman god than anyone had a right to-- Tyler was waiting for me" I MADE THIS UP!!!!!!!mostly.

Sykes's picture

A lot of people here don't

A lot of people here don't understand what you're trying to say. I know that you feel that there's nothing else to do. You want help and you know you need help, but it took a BIG push to get you this far, it's not just gonna be an easy path to the finish. Just hang in there and try to purge your head of anything harmful.

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Cluny: "[mocking tone] Oh my! Are you scared?"
Cornflower: "Yes... but I'll get over it. *You* are ugly, and there's no cure for that." -Redwall

yourconscience35's picture

reality check.

okay, seriously, no.

WAYS TO KILL YOURSELF??!?

I understand that your little histrionics were quite cathartic, but seriously, ASKING people how to kill yourself? That's why god created the internet- do your research, man.

But really, do try to feel better, and try to refrain from that. Go to your therapy and perhaps other people might have better ideas for you...

night.

Neutrina's picture

*hug*

Why would we help you kill yourself? Eli, we want you here.
And I'm sure it's not that they don't want you.
And we'll sure as Hell notice if you die. So don't. Okay? We're here for you.

"When the people begin to reason, all is lost" - Voltaire