i am failing physics.
I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO SUMMER SCHOOL.
not only that, i dont want it to happen so that maybe i cant end up going to Iowa Young Writers and have to go to FUCKING SUMMER SCHOOL instead.
of course, me failing physics is purely my fault.
i swear to god, i will hop on a bus and run away to the Iowa program if i have to.
I WILL NOT LET MY INCOMPETENCE GET IN THE WAY!
GOD I AM SUCH A DUMBASS.
also, my "best friend" is pissed or upset at me.
i dont even fucking know.
shes such a goddamn princess. i do not have TIME to deal with all of her PROBLEMS. i have issues of my own, thanks.
and of course the boy hasnt called me at all.
i dont know what to do with him.
im supposed to see him tomorrow but he refused to call me yesterday
and if he doesnt call today, should i even bother calling him tomorrow morning?
it could easily be that nothing is wrong, at all
not with me and him anyway
or it could be that im supposed to be Taking a Hint because i should know by the Lack of Communication That is Ensuing. (yeah, he seriously said that once. cocksucker, huh?)
I AM SO FUCKING STRESSED.
NOTHING IS GOOD.
i just want to lounge around outside and smoke and read and write.
WORLD, GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK.
LEAVE ME ALONE.