so much, ive been fighting this for so long, but i just cracked, i hate my self and everything about me. especialry being gay. i hate it all, i hate that im emoitional, i hate my body, i hate my annoying personality, i hate my how i dress, i hate that im not athletic, i hate i hate i hate it alll.......i hate myself so much, i just wish i could just die, drown in my self pity. but im to much of a coward to harm myself. i just wish some homophobic kkk nazi wouldjust shot me, or put ne in a gas chamber or burn me or wat ever. i hate myself more then ive ever hated anything else.