i hate mmyself.............

ferrets's picture

so much, ive been fighting this for so long, but i just cracked, i hate my self and everything about me. especialry being gay. i hate it all, i hate that im emoitional, i hate my body, i hate my annoying personality, i hate my how i dress, i hate that im not athletic, i hate i hate i hate it alll.......i hate myself so much, i just wish i could just die, drown in my self pity. but im to much of a coward to harm myself. i just wish some homophobic kkk nazi wouldjust shot me, or put ne in a gas chamber or burn me or wat ever. i hate myself more then ive ever hated anything else.

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Strawberry-chan's picture

Don't.

Please don't.
I used to feel that way... Until I realized that all the bastards around me wouldn't know or care in ten years time, and neither should I.
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Adam A's picture

meow

well then you're a douchebag....coz happen to think u'r funny, cute, clever, kind, caring and a myriad of other qualities i would consider very positive. as far as u'r body is concerned, it's a lot easier to get a body like u'rs looking how you want it to than...if...say...you were a fatty, plus u'r only 14, guys don't really fill up until a bit later on...what are you in such a rush for? and you can't be all that bad if Jarred decided you're so wonderful that he wants to be with you....don't discount that. I'm not saying you should measure yourself by how other people feel about you, you should get to like u'rself on u'r own...and obviously when you feel like you feel right now that's not easy, but i think u'r well worth the effort and are smart enough to get there...and i'm not one of those optimists that say that about most people...i wouldn't piss on most people if they were on fire...so there you go...u'r already special! :P
can't say i dont' relate to what u'r saying, I do, I just think u'r wrong sweetie...u'r beautiful to me (which again is something rare).
now just stay right where you are *calls up kkk nazis* "bring u'r flamethrowers fellas....ill bring my other kind of weapon."

ferrets's picture

i know........

other people like me, its me who dosnt like me, and its not just things i mentioned, itssome other stuff to.......and for thhe last time, im 13 adam.

ferrets are love, no way around it!

RegretShouldntExist's picture

Matt......Plz stop thinking

Matt......Plz stop thinking this way. We've talked about this plenty of times.....Ok look. If you hate the way you dress change it. I hated the way i dressed it was the same clothing everyday. So..I changed my outfits. I got new tighter shirts, i got black skinny jeans and i surprised EVERYONE! They smiled when they saw me they noticed and i felt better. But i had another prooblem and that was my stomach. It was waaay to fat. So...to help that i got different eating habits, i ate differently, excersied some and i got a better body....kind of lol
Point is. Dont mope around and feel bad for yourself. If you hate how you clothe, how you look, how you act. CHANGE IT. Only you can help yourself. You have the power to make a differnece so why not do it? You will feel better

RegretShouldntExist's picture

Matt......Plz stop thinking

Matt......Plz stop thinking this way. We've talked about this plenty of times.....Ok look. If you hate the way you dress change it. I hated the way i dressed it was the same clothing everyday. So..I changed my outfits. I got new tighter shirts, i got black skinny jeans and i surprised EVERYONE! They smiled when they saw me they noticed and i felt better. But i had another prooblem and that was my stomach. It was waaay to fat. So...to help that i got different eating habits, i ate differently, excersied some and i got a better body....kind of lol
Point is. Dont mope around and feel bad for yourself. If you hate how you clothe, how you look, how you act. CHANGE IT. Only you can help yourself. You have the power to make a differnece so why not do it? You will feel better

Sykes's picture

Hey Ferrets you ok?

Hey Ferrets you ok? Something seems up cuz I've never really seen you like this. Hope ur ok. Just hang with ur ferret.

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Cluny: "[mocking tone] Oh my! Are you scared?"
Cornflower: "Yes... but I'll get over it. *You* are ugly, and there's no cure for that." -Redwall

holahaveamuffin18's picture

oh, matt, i know how you

oh, matt, i know how you feel.
i know this sounds completely cliche, but: it gets better. so much better, i promise.
last year i thought the same thing - i hated my body, my personality, the fact i like girls, & everything else about me.
and you don't deserve to have ANY of those things done to you - you're a great kid, don't forget that, k?
hang in there, hon.
& PM me if you ever need to talk (even today, although i might not be on to check it for two days)

Gothic_Ballerina's picture

Hi Hon... Please read what I'm about to say

Listen, there is nothing the matter w. being gay or bi.... i used to hate on myself all the time n now i found out that it's easier to love myself the way i really am, then for something i'm not. If u ever need a friend, I'm here, kay Hon? ~ Gothic Ballerina ~

centerfielder08's picture

pplease dont honey.

pplease dont honey.

Gothic_Ballerina's picture

'Kay... sorry

Sorry... it just kinda slid out, i'm just naturaly really caring... sometime too much, forgive me?
~ Gothic Ballerina ~

perple's picture

I think you're cool,

I think you're cool, ferrets.

perple's picture

I think you're cool,

I think you're cool, ferrets.