Told you I wouldn't be away forever.
Came back to share some news. I'm finally getting some help for my depression. I made a doctor's appointment today, earliest I could get in was next Wednesday. So I feel relieved. But anxious because I wish it was tomorrow. For three years I've been going into these extremely low periods of depression. I've been in one for the majority of this year, and I'm sick of it. I feel like I broke. Usually I rely on myself to get through it, as well as some of my really good friends. But you know... I'm tired. I'm so tired of my life being an uphill battle every day. Sometimes it's hard for me to just get out of bed. Because I don't have the energy to face the world.
So I'm not sure what's going to happen next week. I'd like to try some anti-depressants, maybe speak to a professional head shrinker. I'll keep you guys updated.