I'm going to go back to the hospital (I hope ) tomorrow. During group therapy they always ask if we can contract for safety. I've always answered "yes" because I've felt safe. I no longer feel this way. I tried again. Yes....SIBs. Shit. Anyways, I'm going to say "no" tomorrow, but I'm nervous as to what will happen. I want to just go back to the hospital. I can't survive without it. I'm sorry for ranting as I know half of you hate me.