Birthday Party

Zephyr's picture

There are a lot of May birthdays. My sister's birthday is later in the week and she's having tons of people over and I wish I had known that *this* many people were going to be here.

I talked to B yesterday about hanging out because I really don't want to be here when 25 8th granders invade my house. *eyeroll* I love my sister, but I hate her friends. It's kind of difficult to talk to her about relationship stuff when I hate her bf. That's kind of another issue though.

Turns out that I get to stay at my daddy's house for a lot longer than I anticipated. Since my mom went out of town I came here and then I'm here this week, for memorial day and until I get out of school. That... is a long time. But I like it because my mom and I don't get along. But I'm feeling so.. like neglected by my family. I hate the struggle for attention that I have with my sister. She's favored over me all the time because she's the youngest.

I'm having a really hard time not thinking about B. Which makes me kind of spacey. I stayed up until 3 am last night talking about her to one of my friends. I really like her. And she doesn't know how much I like her because I don't want to scare her away. I want to be her girlfriend. I want to be able to kiss her. Like even though we piss each other off sometimes, I think we could actually make it work. We do that because we know each other well. At some point I don't know whether I'm trying to convince everyone else, or me that it would be okay for me to date her. I'm not really sure. But... I know that I do want to date her. She's actually really sweet and funny. And I totally can't stop thinking about her.

*As a slight side note I realized that I kind of have a catcher fetish (like baseball/softball) She plays softball and she's a catcher. And my favorite player on the baseball team I like is a catcher.

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Lehcure's picture

ah. 25 8th graders O.o ..my

ah. 25 8th graders O.o
..my sister's in 7th grade so Ikinda know how you feel.

.hmm..what would happen if you asked B out on a date? to the movies or something? ..a date's casual and stuff, and hopefully puts you in the right direction to getting what you want. =]
..unless that would be awkward or something.
catcher fetish? that's a new one :P but I guess we all have our little quirks :)

Zephyr's picture

Thanks for the sympathy.

Thanks for the sympathy.

And.. we don't go to the movies because... we have weird history with the movies and we also don't go bowling. I mean I know what you mean. But.. I always feel the need to explain things. I invited her to come over to my house to "save" me from my sister's party guests. So we'll see if she shows. She lives down the street from me. And she will hopefully come over when she gets off of work.

Yeah, aren't we all special? My friend likes back-up catchers. But real catchers like professional ones get more air time. xD

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Lehcure's picture

ah, weird history. that's

ah, weird history. that's okay. I know what you mean by having the need to explain things. I always want to do that too. Then when I do I always feel like I told a little too much info. and it's just a never ending cycle. O.o
but overall I guess explaining things makes way more sense than expecting the other person to already know how you feel about everything.
okay hopefully she shows up then, have fun. :)

Zephyr's picture

Yeah, it's a never ending

Yeah, it's a never ending cycle. *sigh*

Thanks. I hope she does too.

Btw. What happened with your friend?

Did you meet your fortune teller?
...
Do it up, it's always stellar
---RHCP

Lehcure's picture

yea, so did she come

yea, so did she come over?
well I'm going over to M's house Friday..so I guess we'll see what happens then. I'm sure i'll post something about it next saturday...
if anything does happen, it will be "purely educational"
haha.

Zephyr's picture

She and I had some sort of

She and I had some sort of disagreement or whatever you want to call it. So no. She didn't. And uhm... my latest journal is the preview of what I did after that I'm writing a short story about it it.

Muahaha I can't wait to hear about it. I'm just wondering what will happen. I mean it's so interesting. And even if you call it "education" I would have to say that none of my teachers are ... that hands on. xP Have fun!

Did you meet your fortune teller?
...
Do it up, it's always stellar
---RHCP