There are a lot of May birthdays. My sister's birthday is later in the week and she's having tons of people over and I wish I had known that *this* many people were going to be here.
I talked to B yesterday about hanging out because I really don't want to be here when 25 8th granders invade my house. *eyeroll* I love my sister, but I hate her friends. It's kind of difficult to talk to her about relationship stuff when I hate her bf. That's kind of another issue though.
Turns out that I get to stay at my daddy's house for a lot longer than I anticipated. Since my mom went out of town I came here and then I'm here this week, for memorial day and until I get out of school. That... is a long time. But I like it because my mom and I don't get along. But I'm feeling so.. like neglected by my family. I hate the struggle for attention that I have with my sister. She's favored over me all the time because she's the youngest.
I'm having a really hard time not thinking about B. Which makes me kind of spacey. I stayed up until 3 am last night talking about her to one of my friends. I really like her. And she doesn't know how much I like her because I don't want to scare her away. I want to be her girlfriend. I want to be able to kiss her. Like even though we piss each other off sometimes, I think we could actually make it work. We do that because we know each other well. At some point I don't know whether I'm trying to convince everyone else, or me that it would be okay for me to date her. I'm not really sure. But... I know that I do want to date her. She's actually really sweet and funny. And I totally can't stop thinking about her.
*As a slight side note I realized that I kind of have a catcher fetish (like baseball/softball) She plays softball and she's a catcher. And my favorite player on the baseball team I like is a catcher.