You know I'm pretty good at concealing my awkwardness but dammit if this girl isn't trying to make me the most awkward person ever. Haha. We were working on another group project today. So, she's on the other side of the table near all the crafty stuff and I'm being all awkward and I don't really know what role in the group I should be taking and she looks at me and she's like "come on" and she smiles and motions for me to come over and help make our prototype. And so I melt :)
Then the whole time I'm standing at the big table of crafts and that trying to help out in some way, she's standing close to me a lot and reaching over me to get things and stuff and it's like "Come on!" then my mind goes to some bad places, ha. By which I mean thinking about how amazing it would be to just accidentally brush her hand. She kept looking at me today, I'm still not sure if it's a good thing or bad thing. Sometimes I think maybe to some people I look a little androgynous so maybe that's a little weird I don't know. I wish I could just post some pictures on here and get your guys opinions on whether or not there's something there that I'm not seeing, like why she keeps looking at me. lol. She doesn't do it in a bad way but idk it's just sorta strange. Anyways...
I like standing near her and just being around her, being awkward, almost having those crazy stomach flipping feelings when she's near me. It's nice to feel different and be around people of my own age and especially when they're cute girls (whether they like me the same way or not). :)
Plus it's nice to have something actually gay to post on here for once. You know I think she's the first girl I've ever wrote about here.