Finding Me: DVD Review

By Jeff Walsh

"Finding Me" is an interesting movie to watch, because most of the time I watched it, my verbtaim thoughts were soon repeated back to me. The main character of the movie, Faybien, starts off as an aimless guy who has no academic interests or a good job. But, we see him phone a friend when he sees Lonnie, a hot guy that often appears at his bus stop. In the call, he is excited to see the guy there again and decides he needs to finally say hi.

It's only after that point that the character keeps going in circles, where he keep deciding what he wants in life. But that's where it got amusing, because when the character would frustrate me and I'd think 'What is this kid's problem?', one of the characters in the movie would say 'What's your problem?' Later, I'd think, he needs to do something already and stop thinking everything through so much. Then a character would say 'You need to just go for it.'

So, on one hand, I guess I really understood how taxing it is to be Faybien's friend, but I don't think that was the point of the movie, which is really about him getting over his homophobic father, his dead mother, and other issues, and finally decide how he wants to live his life. But since you sort of know it's the only clear path, and the one he's likely to take before the credits roll, it takes him a long time getting there.

It's rare to see an entire independent movie with an all-black cast, let alone a gay independent movie with that feature, but it had an interesting enough story. It just sort of took too long and tried your patience. I'd rather his friends get frustrated sooner than me and indicate how long it's been going on, rather than feel that way myself and have them confirm it.

It's never a great movie where the character is largely having an internal struggle, since movies are a visual medium. But I'd imagine any black gay youth who see this movie will still probably be happy to see something resembling their life on screen. I just think the story could have been tighter.

If you want to see an urban black gay story set in New York City, it's not like you have a lot of options. This story could be better, but it still has its heart in the right place.