Ugh. So me and a bunch of my girlfriends had a party last night for a foreign exchange student friend of ours who's leaving soon. It was a really fun party, we went to Jumpstreet (giant wall-to-wall trampoline place XD) and watched Twilight and made fun of Robert Pattinson and I secretly swooned over Alice, but--well, there's always a but isn't there?
Two of my friends were being all jokey, like "cuddle buddies" and whatever, and for them it was just giggly fun we're-being-weird-we're-straight-really, and I wanted to too, like just as friends, not meaning anything else, but I didn't. I'd've felt guilty doing something like that, since I'm *not* straight and all (and the two of them don't know).
But me and my friends have never been really huggy, so I wanted to take advantage of the rare huggy moment. I *like* hugs, even just from friends. But ever since realizing I'm not straight, I've felt awkward hugging my girlfriends. It's soo annoying, cuz I know I'm being a total prude, and cuz it *wouldn't* mean anything just among friends--I never feel weird about hugging guy friends...*groan* I really do overthink things don't I?