I'm a fucking see-saw.

Lyexsah's picture

That's what I am. The little fun morning with my friends got me through the rest of this week, but I could use some anti-depressants right now.

Or some E. I know a guy who deals who can help me get it; cheap, cheap for E at least... Do I dare go there? If I had his number, I'd likely be trying to get some tonight, but since I don't have his number, I'll probably have to wait until Monday, and by then I'll be happy again, or at least not screaming desperate for a pick-me-up.

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Uncertain's picture

What I think

Is there any particular reason why you're feeling down?

We all have ups and downs. Spending time with friends can usually get your mind away from negative thoughts, but it's okay to feel sad. It's fair enough to feel a bit more downbuzzed after friends leave... but I mean we can't always have epic times constantly - otherwise they wouldn't be so epic/fun right?

I'm in no away a trained professional, but what I think of drugs, alcohol and to an extent antidepressants is that you shouldn't become dependent on them. When people become depressed for a reason, it's important we find out what the reason is and fix it instead of masking the problem with the effects of substances. Because that's like having a giant hole in the wall getting bigger and bigger but instead of fixing the hole you're simply wallpapering over it until the holes too big and it's too late.

Of course I'm not referring to people who are seriously clinically depressed with uncontrollable chemical imbalances. That's completely and persistently beyond their own control.

Lyexsah's picture

You know...

I would go get some E, but I also know it doesn't help anything for more than a few hours. The thing is, I know how E works, and I know that after that burst of happiness, there's going to be a crash; a horrible crash that'll put me two rungs lower on the ladder than I am now.

I'm honestly glad that it's Saturday, because I'm too impulsive for my own good sometimes. I need to try and find something to keep me occupied, but I'm not really one to talk about my problems a whole lot. :/

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