Live and Learn....

l.enigma_ambulante's picture

Well, well, well..

It's been well over two months since my last post, I believe... Wait.. maybe it's been two months. I don't remember. Anyways, I'm back.

A lot has happened in the past two months! I'm sure I could write a book about it all, too haha. I'll just make a list & vent today. =]

1) I dated Craig for the 6th (and final) time.. this time it lasted a month. =o I actually dated someone for a month. Shocker. But I broke up with him because he kept telling me how he loved me SO much more than he loved Dani, who he was with for a year, and.. well, we almost.. **ALMOST** had sex. Now that I look back on my experiences with him.... it's pretty rediculous (not to mention disturbing.. becuase i have absolutely no feelings at all for him now whatsoever, and I do not even find him remotely attractive).. becuase I didn't even love him. =/ Live and learn, I guess....
And also, my friend (yes.. "that" friend.. ahem..) told me that her two best friends (who are both bi..) broke up, then Craig and the two girls "hooked up." Apparently he's moved on. Two those two girls. Because he likes them both.
Fml. That's the last time I ever date a manwhore haha.

2)My best friend / sister-person and I are fighting, yet again, because she is a stupid little bitch. And the reason why I call her this is simple- she really is one of the stupidest people I know. Not only did she lead a guy on, but it's a guy who she claims said that he "loves" her. I suppose just saying all this doesn't sound so bad to you guys, but hey.. I know her like the back of my hand.. and trust me, she is a complete drama queen. Worse than me, if you could consider me a drama queen. Three weeks ago she didn't want anything to do with him because all she was to him was a piece of ass. And now, she says that she has "changed his mind" about that, and she now wants to be with him. It almost makes me want to scream.

3)I GRADUMATATED!!! I did, seriously. I'm going to college (it's an all girls school..) in September. =D I'm so excited!!! But it's so stressful for me, because along with babysitting this summer, going to Canada (I'm leaving July 4th.. I won't be on until the 14th or so), and getting ready for college, I have to deal with my family, who I can tell are going to suffer without me here... I do just about everything for them! I clean and I help with cooking and everything, I do laundry, and I barely have time to sit down and rest a little bit before my Grandmother or Grandfather need me to run and get them something. Urg.

4) Last, but not least, I almost came out to "her" last night. Almost. I was so close!!! But I couldn't. We were talking on MSN, and the timing just wasn't right.. but it wasn't right to run away from the topic that I brought up, either.. sigh. I don't know what to do, you guys.. I don't think she even suspects.. I don't know if she even knows that I know that she's a lesbian! Urg. I mean, we've talked about it quite a bit, but I don't know if some of her other friends, who are in denial that she's actually a lesbian and who really have feelings for her, are the ones who are making her feel like everyone is in denial about it.. but now I've got to thinking.. maybe she's the one in denial or questioning.. maybe she's the one who is questioning why her friends are in denial or maybe she's even questioning her sexuality now...
All I know is that I really like her. Still. And she needs to know the truth..

I suppose that's all for now.. I'm currently babysitting, but the kid is still asleep and he'll probably wake up in a few minutes. Thanks for taking the time to read this, if you have lol.



Zephyr's picture

Wow that's a lot of schtuff.

Wow that's a lot of schtuff. Have fun in Canada and good luck with the talk to "her." xD
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