Ok, well, lets start at the begining:
For the past two years now, I have been crushing on this girl in my grade. Before then, it hadn't even crossed my mind that I would be anything other than straight. Now I have no clue. I know I'm probably not fully gay, but I may not be fully straight either. The thing is, I've never had another 'real' crush, boy or girl, so it's confusing. She was in drama, so I had been seeing her after school and around a lot. Though we are not friends, she's pleasant enough when we do speak. (Though I usually get so nervous that it's a little short. :) ) And I've been dreaming of her. If that wasn't weird. But it probably really isn't. Sorry for rambling. And before you ask, yes I do feel both emotionally and physically attracted to her. Oh ya, she's straight.
So now, even though I'm not pursuing this in any way shape or form, I have been questioning my sexuality. I've found myself more interested in girl on girl stuff, and looking out for gay issues. I was already supportive of my one gay friend, and in my school's GSA as an Ally, but even there I haven't felt comfortable talking about this. Both my parents are open minded and stuff, so that isn't a problem, but anyway, I'm just confused.
I know I probably need more life experience to figure this out, but I've been confused, and I guess just needed to get this out there. Thank you for taking the time to read through this seemingly long ramble. If you have tips or advice, or need clarification on anything, please comment.