FAiL? near-cheating and epiphanies and such.

treycasenfersherr's picture

alright i'm not gonna bother with typing correctly right now cause i don't give a shitt
just wanna get everything out.

here goes nothin.
[that's a nevershoutnever! songg(:!!!]
fuck adhd.


i'd never cheat on my girlfriend.

i think about it all the time.
i mean alot.
anddd i talked to this girl about it yesterday
we had a hellla risque conversation
and we planned to chill...and stufff.
like i actually planned to cheat on my girlfriend with this whole elaborate thing.
and at the moment
i didn't care.

i always pretend i don't give a shit.
who am i pretending for?
it doesn't do me any good.
it doesn't do anyone else any good.
i love analisa.
and i'm sending these vibes out to the world like i don't give a rat's ass.
but i do.
just because i didn't see her for a month while i was gone, and she'll be out for another month at her camp.

i care about her so much and i plan on being with her for a long time.
i'm just...maybe it's trying to be the whole man thing.
i'm gonna be a male so i'm practicing.
but that's not excuse for how i've been acting.

and that girl from last night? i texted her a three-part text about how i wouldn't go through with it, i couldn't, i care about analisa too much and i would never cheat on her ever. i care about my friend but like i'm never cheating on my girl.

thing is......
i recognize all of this about myself but i'm not proactive about it.
i really feel i should be.

working on it.


tenmilestilts's picture

well hey, what matters is

well hey, what matters is you *didn't* cheat. everyone thinks dirty, it's whether or not you act on it that matters.
Two wrongs don't make a right but three lefts do!

treycasenfersherr's picture


Yeah, point made.
I *could* blame it on being a teenager however ^_^ hahaha.
I'm not gonna act on it.

I really care for my girlfriend alot and we've been through enough shit already, I don't wanna risk losing her again.

typicalmusician's picture

Yeah, as I said to a friend

Yeah, as I said to a friend once (when she was crushing on 3 people, of various genders, simultaneously): what keeps your feelings separate from sluttiness is how you act on it, and you seem to be doing fine at that at this point.



treycasenfersherr's picture


I'm intimidated by women anyway, like I haven't even kissed my girlfriend yet and we've been on/off since March, so like legit cheating I don't think I really need to worry about anyway...hmmmmm.

I've got birds in my ears and a devil on my shoulder and a phone to the other and I can't get a hold of her, and what's a crush to do...what's a crush to do when he can't get through?
-Risque by Cute Is What We Aim For