Back to school

ShowMeLove's picture

In a few weeks I'll be starting my second college program. Well, really I guess it's a prepotory program but....yeah, going back to school. Which is kind of intimidating. I've been out of high school for almost 5 years. Which makes me sound incredibly old. Well, I'm 21 so hopefully I'm not too old for Oasis. You guys would tell me right??? haha. I still need you all and I like it here so I hope you don't all kick me out :) I'm sure I'll have LOTS of crushes to report to you when I'm in college. Including my return crush on the girl from Guatemala ;D Anyways...

My teacher, or rather my facilitator, in my last college program warned all of us about how in our next program there would be lots of drama going on. AND she didn't mean acting and stuff. lol. She told us not to get sucked into it. Which I found funny. It was like what??? What is that supposed to mean? What drama? The other people were wondering the same thing too. She was basically saying that over there it's easy to get sucked into the other student's personal business and also getting sucked into the whole talking-a-break-every-five-minutes kind of thing and skipping and stuff like that. I'm still kind of surprised she'd say anything like that to us. About her school. But, yeah, college is definitely different from high school.

But I'm still apprehensive about the school work and everything. It's like...ugh. This again. Back to high school. I don't enjoy it. Most of it anyways. But I'm working towards something...a piece of paper. So, you know I want to complete something for once in my bloody life. Also though I just want to get out of the house. I want to experience life. Which to be honest, I haven't really been doing for the past 5 + years. It's complicated. But I'm ready to go out there and give it a shot. Most importantly I miss having friends. It's been a while since I've had really great friends that I have fun with, that I can talk to. You know? But I'm shy and self conscious which really doesn't help when you try to make new friends. I never know what to say :/ And...It would also be nice to meet a girl, you know, that could be more than just a friend :)


will's picture

That's right! You are not

That's right! You are not old at all, we still love you no matter what =) And your crush reports LOL Best luck to your college program and finding of Mrs. Right.

Nothing is good or bad, but thinking makes it so.

ShowMeLove's picture

I feel good that I'm not too

I feel good that I'm not too old. haha. And thanks for all the luck, I need it :)

Once upon a time I ripped the wings from my spine
But when I hide inside your eyes I still pretend that I can fly