Me = GOD DAMNED, FUCKING RETARDED!

Peregrine's picture

Omg I miss Mat SOOOOOOO fucking much. I was stupid to listen to other people, and to write that, and to make him jealous. I hurt me now because I hurt him. (wow this might actually be short and to the point)I can't write too much because thinking about him makes me wanna cry for all I have lost. I don't even know if he hates me or not. I am so retarded, and im a douche, and he deserved and still deserves better than me. So I am kinda hopeing he won't take me back because he has someone better. I don't deserve him, he was too good a person to have liked everything about me.......

Sorry I gotta go for a while, I may breeze thru every now and then, but I am a wreck, and no one wants to see that.

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elph's picture

Self Hatred: Not Good!!!

Hi Kyle,

From the way you write, I can viscerally feel your angst --- and I feel you do not deserve to be so down.

You think you've made a big mistake. Of course, we don't know what that mistake was (nor, are we asking) --- but you did send a sincere apology! Please pursue your friend and tell him face-to-face that you would like to start over.

Don't abandon this opportunity... and continue to maintain your Oasis Journal!

Lyexsah's picture

For the record

Despite what his profile may say, his name is Zack, he changes his name every week, from Kyle to Aaron, among other things. -__- I refuse to call him either of those becuase of close friends with the same name.

I'm afraid I don't have much on-topic to say; I'm not speaking to Zack but there's truth to what you've said to him.

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P.L.U.R.

Peregrine's picture

I'm trying to catch him, but

I'm trying to catch him, but he seems so far away...

"I'm not the one who's so far away, when I feel the snake bite into my Veins! Never did I wanna be here again, and I don't remember why I came."