One day you'll have to breathe.

Human101's picture

The last entry I wrote made me realize how worried I actually am for Shelby. I know the last time I talked to her she was living in and out of a van, being beaten by her brother and getting kicked out of her house on a daily basis. Now she's just gone?

I hope she's sober(ish). I hope she didn't get fired from her job, I hope she plans on returning to school in 22 days like the rest of us, I hope she alive.

I myspaced her, texted her, and I would facebook her if she had one. Hopefully I just caught her while she's offline, hopefully she's charging her phone at this exact moment, hopefully she's not in some random ass hotel on an Acid trip right now.

God. Right now I'm thankful for my lack of an addictive personality, the fact I never got into the hard drugs, I can control my drinking, my supportive family and life. I wish she'd sober up, and at least attempt to get things straight in her life. Cocaine and Acid will only get you so far down, one day you'll have to breathe and when that day comes I hope you realize it's time to sober up. Life is going to through you shit all day every day, strong people overcome those situations and learn from them. The weak turn to substances to forget their problems, only bad thing is when your sober it hits you twice as hard.

Come back to society please? I miss you, I care about you, I love you, I want you alive.

I have a lot to talk about and I don't really know how to say it. I'm going to just vent, randomly vent, that sounds nice right about now. I'm currently speaking with Emily (not the one from the previous entry, this ones a hilarious girl from camp). We're talking about hanging out and finding something to do on Kent Island. I think we're going to find abandoned houses! That's always a good past time. Her and Kelly are coming over and we're going to watch horror movies. I love both of them, they make me like 12323532X happier.

Have any of you seen the movie A Clockwork Orange? It's seriously the best thing since sliced bread. Oh and the movie 500 Days of Summer? I heard that movie is good but really depressing if you've had bad experiences with love. I'm pretty afraid to see it strictly because of that and the fact I don't feel like crying in public.

I've been taking Bendryl like every night. I think I'm going to stop now because I sleep until 2pm if I take it and that's wasting the majority of my day.

I talked to my mom about driving today and on Friday I'm off to take my permit test. I passed the reevaluation day! Yesssss. Now I just have to get a 17/20. Which I shall do!

I'm pretty sure I'm in love with these bands: Passion Pit, Stars, Never Shout Never, and Vampire Weekend. I'll have a Summer '09 playlist done before school. Promise.

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Peregrine's picture

Where is Godsmack... ? "I'm

Where is Godsmack... ?

"I'm not the one who's so far away, when I feel the snake bite into my Veins! Never did I wanna be here again, and I don't remember why I came."

Human101's picture

Ahhhh. I haven't heard

Ahhhh. I haven't heard anything playlist worthy lately. Do they have any good tracks?

Peregrine's picture

OMG! Old Godsmack like

OMG! Old Godsmack like Voodoo and I Stand Alone are the best!

"I'm not the one who's so far away, when I feel the snake bite into my Veins! Never did I wanna be here again, and I don't remember why I came."

Human101's picture

I have Stand Alone. Lol

I have Stand Alone. Lol that's like their only song I like.

Peregrine's picture

0.0 BLASPHEMY! "I'm not the

0.0 BLASPHEMY!

"I'm not the one who's so far away, when I feel the snake bite into my Veins! Never did I wanna be here again, and I don't remember why I came."