Icarus's picture

*tugs the kleenex closer*

i can't even really put my thoughts into words right now just write them sounds so selfish and so stupid and so just....ugh. *sighs*

i'm sure watching intervention doesn't help any.

i don't even know what happiness is anymore. i don't know what i means to be content...or happy anymore. i have moments of happiness i suppose, but they last maybe a little while and then i'm just...blank.


i don't even care anymore. i wanna say what i'm feeling, but it just feels so pretentious and so stupid and so whiny.

no one understands me.

i don't have any friends.

i disappoint everyone.

just one big fucking disappointment to everyone i meet.

i'll never be truly happy.

i'll never meet anyone.

i'll just have to meet everyone's pity-filled gaze as they reassure me again, "Oh, you'll meet someone. There's someone out there for you. Blah, blah, FUCKING BLAH."

i'm sick of it.

i'm sick of talking about it.

i'm sick of thinking about it.

i'm sick and tired of being my own worst fuck-up.

i'm sick of people telling me to just suck it up, get over it, everyone goes through the same shit. awesome. thanks for the fucking advice. yeah, i know i should suck it up, but sometimes i need some fucking sympathy.

oh god, fuck it. i'm in a horrible mood.


Zephyr's picture

*Hugs* ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Did you meet your fortune teller?
Do it up, it's always stellar

Alyska's picture


*hugs as well*

"When you can't walk you crawl, and when you can't do that you find someone to carry you" ~Firefly

duct tape godess's picture

im sorry to here this hun

its a load of shit that you have to go through this and as the natrual show of compassion that the lovely human race has you have to get screwed over.
i am truly sorry for that.
dont let anyone undermind what your feeling right now.
you have every right to feel the way you do and its a bunch of shit saying everyone feels this.
i know i did but plenty of people live happy sheltered lifes and thats okay for them.
but you will have an advantage they will never get, you will grow stronger, smarter, and far more patient.
not only that but youll be able to handle things that no other person your age can.
just give it time.
it hurts now but i promise you it wont forever.
it will hit you one day that you have everything you need

stay strong and never give up hun.
message me if you ever need to.

"There was never any good old days
They are today, they are tomorrow
It's a stupid thing we say
Cursing tomorrow with sorrow"
-Gogol Bordello

carmen143's picture


I can totally relate to that happiness problem.
And don't worry about sounding selfish about your feelings. They're yours.
You feel what you feel.
<3 FLAME ON! <3

Merric's picture

Not stupid, not pretentious,

just the truth and that's okay.