so omg/ labels

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here's my list:
my cousin
my mom
my aunt (cousin's mom)

know that i'm "gay"

most of my friends know i'm either bi or gay...mostly bi...
how confusing...i consider myself bi but would rather be labeled gay/queer
and it's only because i prefer girls...but wouldn't mind a guy...but really really really prefer girls....haha....listen to me ramble...i ramble too much...even in my head...it wont ahut up...i wont shut up...gah!

so anyways...shout out! : Morgan...i fucking love your stories that you post...they're amazing...yeah...

anywho...so i kinda came out to my mom...i wrote "dear mommy, i'm sorry but i'm (drawing of fruit) love always, your daughter"

and i can't really tell if she read it/think it's a joke/ doesn't give a shit if i'm gay...
and the whole fruit thing is relevent...we were talking about fruty people....a couple days back....yeah....i have been on oasis with her looking over my shoulder so...that might be telling her it's not a joke? bllah...
someone huggles me....NOW! jk...kinda....sorta....
question....
do you think that maybe veronica lead me on? you remember my sit. with her right? met her in psych class in summer school and we were holding hands in class and everything...on the last day i told her via poem/writing that i liked her and she said she only liked me as a friend....i keep thinking about it...and i realize i shoud fill my head with more....fuctional things but....it just...haunts me that i actually could have been my friend mutual crush kind of thing...i mean she did say she was kind bi but not really...she liked guys more but could go both ways....and was it flirting? because we were holding hands? and talked alot in class/outside of class? according to my cousin, cousin's bf, some upper classmen in the psch class who are sort of friends with cousin's bf...think it's flirting...i still don't get what flirting is even after you peeps so patiently explained it to me....gah....ramble ramble ramble....blah....

now the devastatin news...i'm going on vacation with my family....starting wednesday to monday....it's going to be helll with my granmother who talks too much and lectures too much and says.questions things a little too much...my mom is hoping not to have a haert attack on the trip and i'm hoping not to through myself off a cliff...everytime she opens her mouth there's going to be someone she infuriates...namely my family...

so i wont be able to hear your ups and downs of life...damnit...this site is really addicting...i love you people...seriously...all of you...