Something Wrong With My Head

Lyexsah's picture

It's the only explaination.

I don't know what it is with my head, maybe it's just filled with too much corruption, but in almost any situation, I automatically think of the worst thing that could ever possibly happen, even with something simple and non-dangerous like walking on a treadmill or down the street. I don't think I've ever told anyone this, but I think I have a really bad case of paranoia; I live most of my life in mild fear.

When I cook I'm afraid the flame will jump and I'll be burned to death. If I so much as stand on a footstool I'm terrified I'll fall off and break something. When I'm doing dishes I'm afraid there will be a knife at the bottom of the sink and I'll cut myself. When I shower I'm afraid I'll slip and fall. And there's so much more it's SO not even funny... At school, I'm afraid someone's going to go crazy and start shooting people; which is probably the reason I'm typically REALLY nice to people.

But I think my all time, absolute biggest fear of anything is driving. I almost cry every time I even drive down an empty street. I'm just barely starting to learn and stuff, so I might overcome it, but in any case, once I have my licence I'll likely avoid driving at all costs.

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Peregrine's picture

OMG Acute paranoia... My

OMG Acute paranoia... My aunt has it... it gets really annoying. There is medications for it, but I don't really trust them...

"I'm not the one who's so far away, when I feel the snake bite into my Veins! Never did I wanna be here again, and I don't remember why I came."

Lyexsah's picture

Yeah

But they have meds for everything these days. XDDD

Al I have to do is prove to myself my fears are illogical or unlikely and I won't have much of a problem. XD Screw meds, I already forget to take the ones I'm supposed to. XDDD Jk

*is not on meds*

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Lyexsah's picture

Yeah

But they have meds for everything these days. XDDD

Al I have to do is prove to myself my fears are illogical or unlikely and I won't have much of a problem. Besides, if I've never told anyone before now, no need to be annoyed. I don't openly display my fears; my pride always combats with them, and Pride ALWAYS wins out. After all, 'There is nothing to fear, but fear itself'. This holds very true in my case. XD I don't let myself get scared often, but my mind is on it nearly constantly. XD

XD Screw meds, I already forget to take the ones I'm supposed to. XDDD Jk

*is not on meds*

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