Listening to 'If I Could Be Where You Are' by Enya. We had my sister's bridal shower today, it was fun. I got no sleep last night, so I was running on fumes, soda, a sugar all day :-) and we had pettiefores (cake). It sucked that my sister had to leave not long after, I hardly see her anymore. Same with my friends, my best friend starts school this week and we never did get to hang out in the past two weeks. I totally understand that my friends and sister have their own cazily hectic lives, I just miss them. And lately I've wondered about best friends. I've always had one or two friends I consider 'besties' but I honestly don't know if I was ever anyone else's best friend. It's not that it that important, I just wondered about it. Because I've yet to make lifelong friends I connect to over more than childhoods and elementary and middle schools. I just want to make 'that friend', and that we can talk about anything together and do whatever, as long as we are together and having fun, you know?
I find that I'm usually the one trying to schedule things, make compromises, and get a hold of people. It just becomes exhausting after a while and I just wish someone would I know would stop and think of reversing it and making the effort. It's just times like these when I think I need to make some new friends, meet a new circle or whatnot. Does anyone else encounter this? Do you ever feel like your the one in your relationships constantly making the effort and left wondering how you went from friends to aquaintences? (My spelling sucks) I just wish I didn't have to try so hard sometimes. I'm socially awkward and shy, so making new friends and putting myself out there is hard. But I guess everything is harder this year, all around. Regardless, I vow to meet new people, Oasis peeps included, of course. I think Oasis counts, since I'm new here, pming and commenting, reading journals. Well I must sleep now.