Not Obsession... but close?

gaynow's picture

So girl from camp... love-interest-girl from camp... presumably straight-love-interest-girl from camp... is a bit of a space cadet about returning txts, emails, etc. Now because of my own funny insecurities, I'm always second-guessing my friendships with people, wondering if I'm "that annoying kid" who people secretly dislike, and who's too oblivious to notice it. So I'm always paranoid that I'm pissing people off with whatever I do, and that everyone secretly dislikes me. So when this girl is being a space case and not returning my txts, all I can think of is, "she's ignoring me because I annoy the shit out of her." And I mean, I'll send one txt and she won't respond, a few days later I send her something else and she responds within the hour. Paranoia? Probably. Does that make it any easier to stop? No. It's not helped by the fact that we were not close at all at camp last summer--this past summer we became friendly. Not close, but on the verge of something--I like to think of it as "latent friendship," which may sound really weird to anyone but me. But the point is, I'm so paranoid about getting in touch with her, I feel like I'm walking on eggshells and it's ridiculous and really annoying. I txt her and have miniature flip-outs every time I pick up my phone for the next two hours, until I resign myself to the fact that she's not gonna reply and probably severely dislikes me anyway and wonders why I keep trying to contact her when she's so clearly blown me off, and then I get all mopey. GROAR.

I start therapy tomorrow. Leeeettle flipped out. Not for any logical reason. It's just big and scary. Gack.

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Super Duck's picture

I am JUST like that. Wow. I

I am JUST like that. Wow. I feel like that partly because I already have a reputation as the extremely socially awkward kid and partly because I tend to overanalyze things. I always jump to the conclusion that everyone hates me if they don't respond within a few minutes, even though I know that that's absolutely ridiculous. I know exactly how you feel. And yes, mine is worse when I text my friend that I like, but ever since she had to leave school, she has gotten much better about responding.

Good luck with your therapy! :)

Merric's picture

I am somewhat like that also...

as I've noted many times,

we are all ONE PERSON.

It is horrifically creepy. In an awesome way.

Rachel Collins's picture

lol

omg, im like that also! good luck with therapy!

Rachel

carmen143's picture

Yeah me too.

That's a tiny bit creepy. Yay for overanalyzing!
And yes good luck with therapy.
Hope it helps you out. :)
<3 FLAME ON! <3

Tophat's picture

... Oasis is SO weird. I am

... Oasis is SO weird.

I am just like that. Merric is correct, we're all one person.

I feel exactly the same way, which is why some of my posts here are so much

"I doubt you missed me"

kind of things. *Huggles* Paranoia Buddies!!!

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