I passed my driving Road Test today! I finally have my license. =)
I'm happy, but it feels like it's kind of been an anti-climactic experience, just a little bit. I have to keep reminding myself that I can go out whenever I want by myself. I mean I have to tell my parents I'm going out, but I don't want to start this off on the wrong foot. I don't want to set a bad precedent by asking for 'permission' all the time to go somewhere. I mean my parents are used to that kind of control I guess, but I'm more than 17 and a half years old. I'll be out of the house in less than one year one way or another. I'll either be in college, or doing an internship or volunteering and studying abroad, that's if I was to take a gap semester or year or if I was offered spring admission, etc.
I just know I'm getting out of here one way or another, I am beyond ready to move forward and to be legally allowed to live my own life as a young adult.
Anyone else feel anything like this? Like you're ready to actually be treated like a citizen?
Well now that I passed the driving test, I just have to conquer the interstate. It terrifies me, but I'm determined because then that means I can go to midtown and more importantly downtown. Downtown to me means...chances, resources, opportunities, meeting people, and just...civilization. It means museums, art events, bigger and better-stocked libraries, volunteering, GLBT bookstore, and the queer youth center. I know I must sound weird, but that's what it means to me.
I just really don't like living in the suburbs, it makes me feel so cut off from everything. It's like living inside a bullet-proof/shatter-proof/reality resistant glass bubble which previously had no escape route in sight. My car is my escape hatch, and now my license is my escape route. I'm rambling and exagarating I know, but I'm done now, lol. I'm forcing my mind to slowly back away from the keyboard before I get caught up again and resume rambling. =)