I was sitting in my first meeting of the year of the GLBTQ support group at my school this morning.
We have alot of kids from 9th and 10th grades, especially, so the 11th and 12th graders and everyone are trying to figure out how we can get a manageable support group size so everyone can get their turn talking and getting help.
Now, last year, it was 9th grade and 10/11/12 by ourselves.
Now, people are offering ideas about "how about we do the gay boys, together, lesbians together, bi kids together, and questioning kids go wherever they think they go?"
Which is great.
For everyone else.
But, I'm the only transgender kid in my school.
if this goes how they want to.
Gay guys go with their group.
Lesbians go with their group.
Bi kids go with their group.
And there are no trans-questioning kids.
...I'm the only one.
Do I just not go back?
I can't do a group by myself.
Until this was brought up, I never realized how lonely it is.
How nobody at my school truly gets it.
I had a trans friend, but he left sophomore year.
And my other trans friend is in 8th grade.
So, right now, I have nobody.
And some people were like "Why don't you go to the lesbian group?"
Because I'm a tranny boy. I consider myself a straight guy, still affiliated with the gay community, but I don't fit in at my school in that aspect.
It's a major let down,
People were hugging me and stuff, saying it'll be fine.
But what are we going to do...?
I've been doing group since freshman year.
I don't want it to hugely split up.
And me just...being me, nobody else getting it, but attempting sympathy.
Eh, whatever, feel free to comment this.