Well, that's a lonely realization...I'm the only trans kid at my school.

treycasenfersherr's picture

I was sitting in my first meeting of the year of the GLBTQ support group at my school this morning.
We have alot of kids from 9th and 10th grades, especially, so the 11th and 12th graders and everyone are trying to figure out how we can get a manageable support group size so everyone can get their turn talking and getting help.
Now, last year, it was 9th grade and 10/11/12 by ourselves.
Now, people are offering ideas about "how about we do the gay boys, together, lesbians together, bi kids together, and questioning kids go wherever they think they go?"
Which is great.
For everyone else.
But, I'm the only transgender kid in my school.
So...
if this goes how they want to.
Gay guys go with their group.
Lesbians go with their group.
Bi kids go with their group.
And there are no trans-questioning kids.

...I'm the only one.
Do I just not go back?
I can't do a group by myself.
Until this was brought up, I never realized how lonely it is.
How nobody at my school truly gets it.
I had a trans friend, but he left sophomore year.
And my other trans friend is in 8th grade.
So, right now, I have nobody.
And some people were like "Why don't you go to the lesbian group?"
Because I'm a tranny boy. I consider myself a straight guy, still affiliated with the gay community, but I don't fit in at my school in that aspect.
It's a major let down,
really.
People were hugging me and stuff, saying it'll be fine.
But what are we going to do...?
I've been doing group since freshman year.
I don't want it to hugely split up.
And me just...being me, nobody else getting it, but attempting sympathy.
Asdfghjkl.
Jesus.
:/

Eh, whatever, feel free to comment this.

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elph's picture

Separate Meetings?

Are you saying that your school's GSA is disbanding into separate groups? If so, I think this would be a very bad idea and I'm quite surprised that students would support this:-(

If, however, you're saying that a common meeting for all GSA members will continue, but will hold separate, more intensive discussion groups --- you should join the sub-group that best matches your interests. Or, move from one to another...

terrabean's picture

I can definitely understand why people would do that.

I wouldn't do it now, but a couple of years back I wouldn't have cared.

TerraBean

treycasenfersherr's picture

Seperation

Yeah, because we have SO many kids that we couldn't conduct a proper support group because it'd be so huge and busy.
Not GSA...no, GLBTQ group. We have a GSA too; that's fine.
**love isn't technical.**

TotalGeek42's picture

Well that's no fun...

Well that's no fun... although, to be fair, I'm the only trans kid that I've ever even -heard- of at my school, including previous years and all that.. >>

"Assets, what are our assets?"

"Well I've got a banana, and in a pinch you could put up some shelves..."

treycasenfersherr's picture

It's getting better-ish.

Alot of kids think it's really interesting, so it's like I'm a one-man show I guess.
I had a really great time educating some straight kids about it today, and they thought it was really cool and I'm always open to talking about it and answering questions, y'know?
Just sometimes...I can't quite be the spokesman.
They'll go out into the real world, some of them only knowing me as the 1st transgender, and they'll meet other ones and they'll base shit off of me.
Oh well.
That's the human race for ya.

**love isn't technical.**