I love the feeling of not being attracted to anyone. You know, the one where you feel so free and independent? I'm there now, and I think I like it.
I mean sure, I'd like to have someone to give my time to, but at the same time I'm glad I won't have to worry about wasting it again. I have this amazing idea though. I started this actual writing journal where I write my poems and lyrics and I draw random things. I think when I find someone I really like I'm going to give it to them. I guess that will be my way of exposing myself? If that makes sense. That journal means the world to me right now and I think that might be kinda romantic, in a way.
I do in a way kind of like someone but I can never hold strong feelings for anyone anymore, plus that someone is there and I'm here. It's kind of depressing. I'm hoping my ability to "like" people will change as I grow, I really really hope they do. Ugh.