My not-smoking is ruined because my mother can't be nice to me when I need support, and decided to be as bitchy as possible and act like withdrawls are lies and quitting is easy even thoughs she's been smoking for 20 something years and can't quit at all.
so I smoked.
I'm sorry, so sorry.
Please forgive me, please, no-one else will except A, my parents will just be horrible even though they can't quit smoking out of habit, not because they were treated badly and didn't want to punch their mother in the face and nearly did.
God I feel so self-loathy right now...