I'm sorry guys....

FalconWright's picture

My not-smoking is ruined because my mother can't be nice to me when I need support, and decided to be as bitchy as possible and act like withdrawls are lies and quitting is easy even thoughs she's been smoking for 20 something years and can't quit at all.

so I smoked.

I'm sorry, so sorry.

Please forgive me, please, no-one else will except A, my parents will just be horrible even though they can't quit smoking out of habit, not because they were treated badly and didn't want to punch their mother in the face and nearly did.

God I feel so self-loathy right now...

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will's picture

You have to persist thought

You have to persist through the craps and you'll get there!
I know, easier said than done.

Nothing is good or bad, but thinking makes it so.

Icarus's picture

awwww, honey it's ok!

awwww, honey it's ok! everyone has their slipups, and quitting cold turkey is just about the hardest thing ever. don't hate yourself for messing up.

*hugs*

so for those of you falling in love
keep it kind, keep it good, keep it right
throw yourself in the midst of danger
and keep one eye open at night.
--"Elephants" Rachel Yamagata

l.enigma_ambulante's picture

YOU CAN DO IT! I have faith

YOU CAN DO IT! I have faith in you. Keep going. Don't let one little thing get you down.

I use that when I'm trying to lose weight. One pound added doesn't mean you should give up. You have to keep going until you reach your goal.

[[Love means you can never be apart... <3]]

Merric's picture

don't worry.

The thing about making/breaking habits is you can keep starting over until you get it to work.
No need for self-loathing! It'll be okay.

stardust's picture

breathe

Just breathe. It's okay, you're forgiven. People mess up, it's just life. Just keep trying and try to search for another way to release frustration and pain besides smoking. Is there anything else you do to take your mind off things when life sucks?

And stop self-loathing this instant! There are worse things to hate yourself for, so a smoking relapse, you will be alright. :)

jeff's picture

So...

You used to smoke a bunch in a day, and today you smoked one.

That's progress, no?

If your mother smokes, of course she'll be a bitch. If you quit, it proves she can't even more. Better to make you fail than you prove she's a failure.

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"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

FalconWright's picture

Thankyou for the support

Thankyou for the support guys, so much.

I feel better nows!

Although I can't think of anything else to get rid of my frustrations other than masturbation or smoking, but that's probably just the withdrawls.

Destino! Mi Arrendo! Al tuo dominio del tempo!

jeff's picture

Well...

You didn't give up masturbating, too?!

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"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

FalconWright's picture

Oh dear god no! It's just I

Oh dear god no! It's just I can't whip it out everytime I get frustrated.

I wish there were more gay men around here...

seeeeexxxxxxxxxx..............

Well thanks jeff, I'ma be thinking about sex non-stop nows! Oh noes D:

Destino! Mi Arrendo! Al tuo dominio del tempo!

fox333's picture

Don't worry we all slip up

Don't worry we all slip up sometimes :D But you can do it! *picks up some pom poms and does a little cheer*