me being angsty about life in general

AoiYumi's picture

So I have been working on my HCA course that finishes this February. It is going quite well. I have been dying to move out of my parents place and move back to my old city. I hope to move out in January. We'll see what happens. But I have to go into the city every other weekend so I still have a little fun. I have been meeting new people. I have gone out on a few dates. Nothing very serious. I'm just trying to learn about what I want. I won't do any serious dating until I am settled in my own place and financially stable.

I am really nervous about the whole process though... It is scary. The one thing I look forward to is getting a good job that pays well (hopefully), and getting out and meeting new people and spending time with old friends. Hopefully I will meet someone that I actually really like rather than dating dead beats. I hate having to say "I'm sorry, I think we'd be better as friends." But I'd rather be alone than date someone that I'm only into a little bit.

I went on a date last week with this young lady. But we don't really have the emotional and intellectual connection going on. We had the physical connections haha... But I had to tell her no when things were getting too far because I just wasn't feeling the rest of the deal going on... I don't know what's wrong with me lately, but I am much less focused on sex than I used to be. I guess I'm just sick of sleeping with women I'm not really compatible with. It always ends in complete disaster... Sex really makes things a lot harder! No pun intended ;)

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kuu2's picture

ahhhhh.

though many dont condone one night stands. i say they put excitement in ur life. so try it. lol. but i cant wait to be at that getting my life started age.

Life is easily complicated.