A Poem For Sophomore

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Remember when we exchanged glances over a table in physics, late last April?
I loved you then.

Remember when you served my advisor's table at the Banquet, and I could barely speak through my nervousness?
I loved you then.

Remember when Junior took her bra off in the middle of the pergola, and all I saw was you smiling?
I loved you then.

Remember when you walked me back to my dorm after the Taco Bell 9:30-10, laughing in the face of conjectures?
I loved you then.

Remember when we ditched the pirate dance to talk in the woods, and you put your forehead to mine and said that nothing would change?
I loved you then.

Remember when we lay on Blondie's bed listening to her tell stories, my head on your shoulder, your hands wrapped around mine, and she pushed you to answer questions you weren't ready to hear?
I loved you then.

Remember when you said you liked Tex on the lawn in front of the dining hall, and only Junior heard the sound of my world falling apart?
I loved you then.

Remember when you hugged me in front of the sand arena, spurs jangling, Senior smiling in the background?
I loved you then.

Remember when I walked up to you at lunch, and your face went cold, and you turned away?
I loved you then.

And now, writing these words, a steady ache in my chest, scared of facing anything or anyone?
I love you now.