Horrifying dream...

Tophat's picture

My friend, someone who is so very important to me, killed himself in my dream...

I didn't know what happened, how it happened, all I know is that he killed himself...
Throughout the whole dream, I was trying to deal with it... it took place over several days. I couldn't stand it. I wanted to kill myself.

That dream was the worst dream I've ever had. I didn't realize how important this friend was, how much I love him, until I had this dream where he was dead.

Words can't describe how much pain there was in this dream. I was so crushed, so depressed, so destroyed. No amount of adjectives could say how terrible it was...

I love this boy... not romantically, but somehow I really love him. He's so important to me that I don't know how I could live if he really did kill himself.

This dream is going to haunt me for a very long time...

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jeff's picture

Hmm...

In my typical cold pragmatic way, I see dreams are basically stuff that didn't happen. So, I tend not to have any major reactions to them, since... they are basically things that didn't happen. Like, if I go see 2012, and NYC explodes, I wouldn't leave the theater freaked out about the possibility of NYC disappearing.

Sounds like the only takeaway is to tell him the dream and how it showed you how important he is to you. Who wouldn't like hearing that?

Otherwise, eh, not sure why you'd be haunted by it.

David Cross has a whole routine about going off on someone who tells him about their dream, but it doesn't seem to be on YouTube. Oh well..

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"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

Dracofangxxx's picture

Don't worry, I love him too

Don't worry, I love him too <3
I miss good old "people are dying" nightmares. Nooo now I have stupid dreams about my ex.
I hope your dreams get better, sweetie :)
With love, from Shelby
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Sometimes I like to sit at night and stare at the lamppost because it's the brightest thing in my life...

Tophat's picture

Haunted...

Because the emotions were very strong and painful. Memorable, shall we say.

You say pragmatic, I say insensitive.

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jeff's picture

Well...

How is it insensitive to suggest you don't need to mourn the not dead? (Unless you're reading Twilight, then Nanook could totally comfort you, although I think he's Team Jacob)

The positive spin is using the knowledge you got about the importance of your friendship, not dwelling on the feelings of the fictional death.

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"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

tenmilestilts's picture

>< aah no reminders of

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aah no reminders of twilight! especially not jacob...i watched the new movie twice and when i got home the second time i spent an hour with my journal trying to figure out why i'm such a masochist.
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Two wrongs don't make a right but three lefts do!

jeff's picture

Yeah...

That is pretty masochistic behavior. But celibate nerds need something to turn into a movement, I guess.

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"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

Nanook's picture

You. are. ridiculous. Why

You. are. ridiculous.
Why would I like Jacob? He's a muscly piece of stupid. Yes, he has a nice stomach, but besides that, he's USELESS.

Good ol' Edward... He's intelligent, funny and handsome.

I'm gonna stop now.

Fiona Rosge's picture

hm

I rememeber hearing once that when a friend dies in your dream it is suppost to signify some thing big and important about that friend...I just wish I could rememeber what it is.
LoL masochisim, you guys have no idea how masochistic I can be....
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Come Josephine in my flying machine
Going up she goes up she goes
Balance yourself like a bird on a beam
In the air she goes there she goes
Up, up, a little bit higher
Oh, my, the moon is on fire
Good-by

ShowMeLove's picture

You're not alone...

I had a dream, a couple years back, in which my nephew, whom I'm very close with, was murdered and that really scared me because, like you, it made me realize how much it would hurt if something happened to him in real life. I have no idea what I would do. It would be like part of my life was missing. I grew up with with him and we've always had more of a brother/sister/friend kind of relationship than a traditional nephew/aunt relationship.

Ah, I really don't want to think about that dream anymore.

Basically I just wanted to say that I completely understand where you're coming from. The fact that you say it will "haunt" you I can understand as well, that's what my nightmares do to me. I mean, eventually it will fade, but for a while it will stick with you. Dreams have quite an effect.