I'm sick. I think.
I'm not physically sick. But I think that there's someone else inside my head. I'm not always sure what I'm doing. Sometimes I see things. I've been seeing these things more often now. It's scary.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm getting scared.
For one thing, I'm a masochist, which isn't totally abnormal, but I hurt myself because it's arousing, which I know can be bad for me... But I do it.
I can't always be sure it's me talking, either, because I say things I don't always mean.
I'm just scared. I think I'm going insane. People have stopped talking to me, and I don't know why.
I just don't know what to do. I want to leave, get out of here, but where would I go? Why do I feel like I need to run away so very badly? What is wrong with me?
I'm trying to get help but they don't understand. They don't listen to me. I tell them things, I'm trying to tell them that there are scary things in my head but THEY DON'T LISTEN.
I don't know what I'm doing half the time. I'm not all there. I can't focus. I can't always tell where I am, or what time it is, or even what year it is.
I can't handle this. I'm scared.