well uhm..... yeah..... titles are hard.....

FalconWright's picture

Uhm... yeah.

Words are hard too.

I don't know what to do about T. (I hope he doesn't read this.)

Or anything really. -.-

We're supposed to have a proper in depth-discussion about stuff over the phone.

I just don't know what to say.

Do I break up with him now? He says he doesn't want to lose me.

But he wouldn't want me if I were a girl.

Do I leave him, do I stay with him, do I put us on hiatus?

I just don't know.

If I put us on hiatus or break up with him, what if I figure out that I'm Juffered (my new term for GQ) or a man and want him back?

If I stay with him and I'm a girl, he'll leave me anyway.

Damnit! I don't know what to do, and I'm emotional and woozy from the migraine pills!!!

I hate pills....

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jeff's picture

Hmm...

Words are hard, *too*? I won't ask.

Well, if you're not 100% sure about the girl thing, then hang on, work on it, see what happens.

But once you're sure, and you're sure he's sure, then it's surely assured than he's part of your history as you start your herstory.

The longer you're together, the more he may be into you, no matter how you identify, or anything else. Or not. Either way, live for today. You may break up for far stupider reasons before you ever transition.

Why the phone? This seems more important face2face stuff, no?

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"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

FalconWright's picture

It would be better face to

It would be better face to face I agree, but we can't meet easily, lack of transport and funds, and my final and his exams.

And thanks for the advice, that made things a lot clearer.

Love you Jeff.

(And if I grammar-failed, it's cause of the tired and the anti-migraine drugs making thinking hard.)

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