Is everything I know a lie? Can I ever trust anybody anymore?
Devan? Pitied me. Went out with me and then broke up with me for another girl he actually did like.
Ryan? Pitied me as well, but actually meant it. Was... generally a pretty good boyfriend for a few weeks. Didn't ever hug me though... Then I left him for Jonah. Wasn't mad at all.
Jonah? Said he loved me... And I loved him... Lasted a year, a month, six days. Left. Lied. Killed me. Broke my heart. Whatever else I can say. Then he went out with my ex-best friend, who "loves" him. If there's one thing I learned from our relationship, it's that I cannot be clingy or love anyone. Nobody. I realize that now. My heart is mine, and if I ever give it away, it will just be broken again. Into finer and finer grains. I'd say it's about gravel right now... Maybe I'll die when it gets to be sand?
Marcus? Ahhh I like him. A lot. But he's old. I couldn't stay with him. That wouldn't... work out. I mean... he's sweet... But no. I have to make smart decisions. Plus... he was... there...
Not gonna analyze the last one for public privacy.