snowing now....

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hehe and same goes for this weekend I think...as the New Year looms still, I've decided to reflect on things and stuff...I know to do things w/ my old ways now when it comes to personal relationships and I know to not forget that now/try to things differently cuz the old ways help/are needed anyways in the long run...I know it's ok to want certain things out of a relationship and to leave/break up if those things aren't happening cuz hey, maybe they're not meant to happen or never will? And it's not the other person's fault, if feelings aren't there/doesn't get to a certain level, they just aren't there/just doesn't happen, no hard feelings... Maybe I'll even make this a New Year's Resolution(or at least one of them)... I hope Vanessa gets what she wants out of her next relationship cuz she really deserves it, I hope it's everything she could ask for and everything she could want, and I hope the New Year has a lot of stuff in store for her.... there are parts of me that will be closed when it comes to new relationships/friendships but when it comes to Vanessa, they won't be closed cuz for us, w/ us, it's never been like that for either of us you know? And I like that still a lot, although there are certain things I won't risk doing again....I am a naturally happy person but for me, to be truly happy/really happy, it has to be a result of another's actions/words in a personal relationship w/ me......I'm going to keep up w/ my HBC still(and having use of RVC's weight room/cardio machines will help out immensely)...I like that I have 2 friends at RVC already and I might even meet them this semester(start getting books/going to class next week) and that'll be good.....I still need to get more appropriate clothes/shoes/boots for winter so I hope to do that in the next few wks....stuff in my siblings' lives are kind of up in the air as of now, but that should change/start to take shape in a few wks also...