I'm a pathetic little creature. The last few days only serve to remind me that I'm merely human, maybe less.
I've fallen in love with Chad, you all know that's Swimmerguy. I really do love and care for him, although I hardly have the chance to speak with him anymore. We spoke frequently at one time.
How I miss him...
I feel an unecessary and visceral feeling of jealousy towards Ferrets, hwever, and I must apologize for this. Chad seems infatuated with him/you, and I want him to be happy and whatnot, but the terrible human-ness within me wells up whenever I think of it.
I hate this heart of mine. I wish I could keep it in a box sometimes.
This feeling of jealousy is unwanted, unneeded, and embarassing.
I'm furious lately as well, at the world, at America, at my family.
I'm a freak when it comes to what I see as injustice, and the things I see of it make me furious. I explode relatively rarely, but it's happened a few times within the new year. I'm so angry at people nowadays, because they're so cruel to their fellow humans.
This makes me even more ashamed of my jealousy.
I shall be here more often on Oasis within a period of at least two days. However, being the erratic and slightly insane creature I am, I may not be longer than that. Or I may stay for a year constantly. I don't really know.
Oy. Please comment. I need verification that I'm actually mattering to something on this planet.