Apologies into a pillow.

Dont-Hate-Me's picture

You ever want to appologise to someone for something you did, but you never got the chance? I know i have...this is where we can always come back and post our own little confessions of sorry-ness. I'll start.

I'm sorry i'm not the son you wish i was.

I'm sorry, i can't be a regular, straight big brother for you.

No, i never really liked you that way. Even though we dated...i'm gay, and you aren't my gender. I'm sorry for leading you on.

I'm sorry i wasn't there for you when your brother died, i had my own traumas to deal with, but i still could've put aside some time to comfort you.

I'm sorry i never gave you the respect you deserve. I was so caught up in earning my own respect, i never gave you the large chunk you deserve from me. I love you, you're my sister, and i'm sorry.

I'm sorry, i could have told you he was going to hurt you. But he's my best friend, and he told me not to tell you he was cheating. Please...forgive me and my confused mind.

I'm sorry my mom set you up with me on a blind date. She knows i'm gay, i didn't know she'd set me up with a GIRL. She just doesn't except it, and is trying to switch me straight. Please, i'm sorry.

Please...stop crying. I loved you once, i truely did. But i cannot date someone who won't be with me in p;ublic. I'm too proud of who i am for that. I'm sorry.

Papaw...please...i'm sorry i am who i am. I know you'd frown at me if you were here and saw what i am, who i am, and what i do. Please, don't think any less of me for being gay. I love you.

I'm sorry i lied to you. I knew i wasn't christian, and yet i told you i wanted to change and become christian. I only did this because i was desperate for a friend and i knew i could rely on you if i made it areligious relationship. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry i never asked you to go on a walk with me. Had i known you liked me...you would be warm, safe,and feeling filled to the brim with love in my arms rite now.

And dad...i'm sorry i made you cry. ...i don't hate you...i can forgive you. So please...fofgive me. I'm sorry.

fox333's picture

You did nothing wrong. A

You did nothing wrong.

A man is educated and turned out to work. But a woman is educated and turned out to grass.
Pearl S. Buck

Dont-Hate-Me's picture

...

...thanks. Means a lot to me sister so...thank you.

"Don't cry because i'm gone, smile! Because i was here!"

ferrets's picture

hun...

its terrible you feel it nececerry to apologize for being gay. i truly hate that some people pertry us in a light that is less the 'normal" or "correct"

if your ever super sad, just rember, you could have been a blowjob.

ShowMeLove's picture

My apologies

I'm sorry that I was such an insecure ass when I was younger. I realize now that you probably needed me back then. You don't how much I hate myself for everything I did and didn't do back then. How much I regret. I, honestly, cry every single time I think about how I acted back then and how our relationship isn't the same now. I wish I could go back in time and redo everything, but I can't; I just hope that I can fix things in the future.

ShowMeLove's picture

Hey

Great topic by the way. I've been meaning to post a journal about that one specific guilt that's been bugging me.

Nanook's picture

I'm sorry that you dislike

I'm sorry that you dislike me so, however, that disposition isn't shared by the rest of the class. So could you, perhaps, mute yourself indefinitely?

holahaveamuffin18's picture

i'm sorry you'll never get

i'm sorry you'll never get to experience the things mothers of girls my age are. i know it hurts you when you talk to the mothers of girls who i go to school with, and they tell you about their daughters' boyfriends, and dress shopping for formal and all that, but it's just not me. it makes me feel like shit for not doing that with you, but i can't change myself. no matter how much i've tried. and i'm sorry i'm not giving you the wedding you always wanted me to have, or the grandchildren you want.
i love you, and i'm sorry i'm not that little, straight daughter you hoped for. but i can't change that, and i don't want to anymore. i just want you to accept me.
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i'm sorry you think that you can dictate my life, but i already have a mother... you know, she's your sister? and i'm sorry you think that you have to put me down constantly to get me to act normal, cus it sure as fuck ain't happening. and i'm sorry that i did nothing wrong, and you still act like i'm some kind of pervert.
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i'm sorry that i'm weird. really, i am. but that doesn't give you the right to try and fix me. i used to look up to you, and now i can't stand you.

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I'm sorry for being born. If

I'm sorry for being born. If you hate it so much, please just kill me and end this. Because I want you to be happy, I always have, and if this is what it takes, then please, just let me die...
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Sometimes I like to sit at night and stare at the lamppost because it's the brightest thing in my life...

oldfoxbob's picture

sorry

I apologize father to you because you abused me both mentally and verbally, yet when you time was short on the earth, I failed to talk to you still. Even though you turned me away from you father, You were still my father and deserved respect for that alone. There were so many things I wanted to tell you before you died. Yet the past stood in our way. The things we did in the past kept us from communicating even though I was an adult then. If I could say to you now what I wanted to say then, I would say I am sorry. Sorry for allowing you to do what you did to me. Sorry for the pain that I suffered for you. Sorry that I was not man enough to stand up to you. Sorry for Your hurt. Sorry for your inability to understand that not every one is the way you want them to be. Sorry for you being you.
NO, I am not sorry now!! I no longer feel the pain of your words. The hate in your voice. The malcontent in your thoughts. I am not sorry any longer father, for you are now dead and I live. I shall continue on with out your spewing hate, or sadness. I shall live with out being sorry anymore. But do remember this. No matter what father. I still Love you even if you did not love me. I loved you.
OFB

Genius is not a sign of intelligence, but rather
that of common sense. Humor is the best pain pill.

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I'm sorry

AA:
I'm sorry I hurt you.
I'm sorry it's "like stabbing you in the heart with a knife" every time I call you my friend.
I never meant to hurt you. Your a friend that has always been there for me and it means the world to me .....even if I suck at expressing it.

RVM:
I'm sorry I can't be her....
I'm sorry I can't make you as happy as she does.
I'm sorry I can't fix it when you cry.
I'm sorry I get jealous.
I'm sorry for crying.
I'm sorry for making your life harder.
I'm sorry for the pain I cause.....I see it in your eyes.
I'm sorry for wanting you to chose...
I'm sorry for hurting your relationship with her.
I'm sorry that I wish someday you could be satisfied with just me.

KJD:
I'm sorry for trying to get between you and her.
I'm sorry for making you hate me.
I'm sorry we can't be friends.
I'm sorry but I can't help but love her with every piece of my heart.

Mom:
I'm sorry.... you had my back even when you shouldn't have. I don't deserve you.
I'm sorry for making you cry.

MGH:
I'm sorry for being such an ass to you when we broke up. I only acted like a jerk because I had never been hurt that way before.
I will love you, forever & always.

KB:
I'm sorry for giving you a hard time when you started dating T.M.
I'm sorry for not being a better friend.

RS:
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you and D.W. broke up.
I'm sorry I can't be there for you as much as I want to.

"There are many things that I would like to say to you.... but I don't know how." <3

Mandi's picture

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I can never be the daughter you wanted, it's just not me and I can't pretend to be someone else just to make you happy

I'm sorry I'm not the best mom, that I can't buy you everything you want, that I'm not strict enough and that you had to see me go through some of the worse times of my life, and I'm sorry you remember seeing your father hit me.

I'm sorry I'm not strong enough for you, my baby sister, I should protect you but sometime fear gets in the way cause I have to put my daughter first and sometimes that means I have to turn my back on you, I wish I could protect you both but I don't know how.

I'm sorry to every guy I ever "made" love me, to me you are all amazing men, and the best of friends, well most of you, and I'm sorry for believing if I just tried hard enough I could make myself love you, I know better now and I hope you're happier just being my friend.

but most of all I'm sorry I still can't seem to accept myself even though all of my closest truest friends can, But maybe just maybe apologies like these even to myself, will help me make it one step closer to accepting who I am and how I feel.