cancel my subsciption, i don't need your issues.

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So, X is «confused», because he's in love with F or something. But F doesn't love him back! Poor kitty! X is so tired of being hurt by him! Aww! (by the way, that was sarcastic, did you notice?)

Anyways, I came to a realization. And that is, if I want to be happy, no one is going to make it happen but me. So, I just have to take out what makes me unhappy out of my life, et voilà.

See, the thing that makes me unhappy isn't X himself, far from it. What does, though, is the fact that I want him to be mine. That's something that is highly unlikely to happen. Even if it did, no one would end up as a winner in the situation. We're far too different.

So, I'm simply going to continue being infatuated with him, be his friend. I want him to be happy, even if that means he won't be with me. And I'm really okay with it. I suppose I want him to see that I'm not selfish, that I'm just trying to be the most honest and good person I can be. Maybe, he'll realize that and see I'm good for him.

And, I told him this about his situation with F :

« Look, if you love someone, really, you fight for them. If you really want him to be with you, stop fooling around, stop seeing other guys. Show him you're serious : just talk won't be enough, you've probably fooled him over and over and he's just as tired as you are of playing games. I'm not telling you this because I want to get rid of you, far from it. But either you fight for him or you give up. Make up your mind. And this doesn't just go for him, it goes for anyone you'll ever want to be with. »

For a change, I think I might have actually gotten through to him.

I'm taking the high road with F, also. When I see him, I plan on apologizing. Even if he doesn't deserve it, and I didn't really do anything to him. However, it's the right thing to do...

I'm in a good mood. I mean, I'm still frustrated from everything. But still.

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elph's picture

I fully understand...

So, I'm simply going to continue being infatuated with him, be his friend. I want him to be happy, even if that means he won't be with me.

Emotionally crushing (for you). But I find your philosophy and empathy commendable... There is always the possibility that (with the passage of time) these feelings will be reciprocated and can be shared mutually.

I hope for this...