I'm so tired of coming out. I'm out to perhaps a dozen people now, and honestly, I'm tired of it. I'm tired of the heart-in-throat stress before and during, tired of the feeling of foolishness for worrying when the reaction is "Oh! ...Well that's perfectly okay," or somesuch. I wish that I could just get it over with. I wish I was already out to everyone. I'm ready for everyone to know, I just don't want to go through the hassle of it.
I've considered switching my now-blank Facebook "Interested in" box to "Women" and "Men", but that would miss out on everyone I know who isn't on Facebook, most notably my grandparents on both sides. And I spent three hours last night looking at rainbow, queer, and bisexual T-shirts online, imagining simply wearing one to school someday.
I really wish I could just come out to everyone all at once--just get it over with, quick and--well, maybe not easy, but short. I have enough people I know are on my side that even if some people react badly, I'll still have support. But then it comes down to the fact that I simply don't know how to come out to my whole school and extended family in one go.